ORGANIZATION CRAZY with the Energy of the Virgo

Long time, no blog. Don’t you fear, lovelies, I’m always thinking of you and investing my time and energy into The Willow Path Tarot. The blog rolls on, even if the ideas don’t always make it onto the screen. I spent the summer getting married, going on my honeymoon, and then doing all the fun summer things that people generally enjoy: swimming, hiking, being outside, and loving the sunshine.  

Lately I’ve been am in super overdrive, paying attention to the details of my life, my goals, and planning, planning, planning for change. At first I was attributing this drive to the Earthy, focused energy of Sun in Virgo and now I’m adding in the New Moon in Virgo this past week as well. I have been at the library multiple times a week, checking out books, getting practical, using my brain, strategizing, making checklists, getting educated, and taking it all in. I’m feeling a little crazy at the moment with how much new information is in my brain.

TO DO LIST:
Change my money mindset.
Change my living situation.
Change Kristen’s music career.
Change my diet and health.
Change how I perceive myself.

“That’s it?!,” you ask. Lolz. I swear I got 8 books out of the library about each of these topics. Here is what I’m reading today and the planners/goal setting notebooks I’m using to write down every little Virgo detail I want to remember and come back to:

Home buying research has me on http://www.zillow.com dreaming, dreaming, dreaming. What’s a loan originator versus a mortgage broker? What’s for sale? Where do we want to live? What kind of interest rates can we qualify for? Where do we want to live anyway?

Being a vegan has me at the farmer’s market, the grocery store, and in the kitchen A LOT. I’m learning how to defend my seemingly extreme lifestyle choice or let criticism just slip by me without judging others for their choices. This is a major transition for me and I’m just allowing it to be a time of flux. I can figure things out a little bit at a time and eventually it won’t be such an overwhelming deluge of information, new recipes, and questions from concerned friends and family. I’m also interested in upping my exercise game and developing a running and yoga regime. So many changes.

Helping Kristen become a Nashville success story has me researching every open mic, every music publisher, every indie record company that exists. I’ve gotten her to consider doing The Artist’s Way and figuring out her unique style. This introvert isn’t always primed to go out networking but if it’s work and it has an end goal, I can get my small talk on with the best of them. I do love music!

Changing my money mindset has me decluttering my life, which is great since being vegan means I need to get rid of most of sweaters and shoes. I’m reconsidering my distain for rich people and imagining what type of rich person I want to become. I’m actually looking at houses I want to buy instead of what I can afford. Well, let’s be honest, at this point what I can afford is nothing, but that’s why I need to change the mindset, right!?

At the end of all this, I see myself making a transition towards the person I inherently am already. Are you asking, “Wait, is that a possible? Can I transition into what I already am?” Well, I believe I can, so any contradictions be damned. I realize this post isn’t much about tarot, but believe me that many a deck deck is on fire delving into my options and giving me tons to think about and use in my decision making process. I love utilizing the tarot to help in situations where I have many options to consider and asking the Universe where to focus my attention most effectively.

What transitions are you making these days using this great Virgo energy?

More tarot to come soon. 🙂  Oh! and you may have noticed that my prices and offerings for email readings have changed. This is exciting for me, as I feel these changes are deeply aligned with my method, value, and aspirations. You can take a look here!

New Year 2017 For Me! And For You Too?

Happy New Year! We are already one week into 2017 so I thought I would sit down and do my New Year Tarot Spread for 2017. I love doing a tarot reading for myself at the turning of the year. It is a very symbolic time of change, of turning over a new leaf, of beginning fresh. I’m easing into the new year this time around, taking much of January to make plans, transition, and set my intentions for the year. There is no rush to do it all at once, although I did pull my 12 cards, one for each month of the year, on New Year’s Day. What a wonderful way to start the year!

If you would like a 2017 New Year Reading, please get in touch 🙂 You can see an example of what you will receive below expect it will be all about you, instead of all about me! I’m also happy to do a 12 month ahead reading if that is more your thing. Just let me know! I’ll deliver you a beautiful PDF reading straight to your inbox ASAP so you can kick off 2017 with your best foot forward, full of insight and empowerment!

Here are the cards I drew for myself for 2017: img_4508

Reflecting on 2016
1. What are you ready to leave behind in 2016? What energy will no longer help support you in your life purpose going into 2017?– IX of Wands
2. What should you bring with you into 2017? What lessons did you learn in 2016 that will still be useful for you going forward?- Queen of Wand reversed
Manifesting Your Best 2017
3. How can you support your health and well-being in 2017?– II of Cups reversed
4. How can you nurture and foster loving and healthy relationships in 2017?- IX of Cups
5. How can you create a productive and worthwhile work environment in 2017?- The Empress reversed
Themes for 2017
6. What lessons will help you learn and grow in 2017?- VI of Pentacles reversed
7. What will be your greatest obstacles and challenges in 2017?- Queen of Cups
8. How can you use the Magician energy of 2017 to your advantage?- IX of Pentacles
9. What will be the overarching theme or energy of your 2017?- King of Swords

Reflecting on 2016:
Let’s start by processing a bit of last year, 2016. The first two cards I drew are both Wands cards, the IX of Wands reversed for what I need to leave behind me in 2016 and the Queen of Wands reversed for what I need to take with me into 2017. The Wands are action cards, fiery, passionate, inspired cards. Right off the bat I know that I need to leave some of that constant motion and push to be doing behind me in 2016. The IX of Wands is about stamina and determination. It is powering through, never giving up, doing whatever it takes to succeed even against the greatest odds. fullsizerenderThis reminds me of what I just wrote at the beginning of this post about easing into 2017. 2016 was a slog, it was difficult, it tested me and I spent the majority of the time just holding myself up and together. I’m not going to pull that same move this year. Instead of constant striving and action, I am going to give myself more down time and more time for being. I’m going to take time off when I’m tired and rest up instead of propping myself up when I am damaged and exhausted. When I show myself this type of care, I show myself love, and I always want to bring more love into my life. With adequate self-care who knows how much more I will be able to do with less effort and exhaustion.

The IX of Wands fading into the past is also a sign of success achieved. I have proven my strength, my courage, and my resilience. I have show great discipline and perseverance. Look at all that I have done! Look how far I have come! I am truly proud of my accomplishments and where I am at right now. I can take a break for a minute now. Life doesn’t have to be a constant forward march. Sometimes progress can reach a pinnacle or a plateau and I should just hang out and enjoy it. The grass is always greener, there are always more things we want to do, and it is hard to be satisfied. The IX of Wands asks me to consider the idea of being content for a moment where I am. I have fought hard to get here, why not take a little break to enjoy the view?

The Queen of Wands being reversed is another sign that action and doing need to be lower on my priority list this year. This Queen is a go-getter, a mover and shaker, a fiery force of nature. With her here reversed I know that I can continue to embody these personality traits, they are always a potential inside of me, but I don’t have to manifest them quite so hard. Last year I made a big transition to move to Nashville. I got a dog. I figured out a way to pay the rent. I got a new car. I finally made it to Ireland. I didn’t give up on my tarot business, I started planning my wedding, I started building a community in Nashville- lots of balls were set in motion. The Queen of Wands reversed is here to tell me that I can nurture all of these beginnings but I can also slow my roll a little bit and delve deeper into all these things I’ve already started.

The Queen of Wands is also the significator I use for my fiancee, Kristen. Whenever the Queen of Wands shows up, I know Kristen’s energy is making itself known in the reading. Here obviously, I see that Kristen will come with me into 2017. We are getting married in June! Yippee! I see the reversal as a little nudge to remember that even though we are getting married we are still two separate people with different interests. There is a large area of overlap in our needs and desires but I still have my own life and I still need to prioritize what I want out of that life. This coming year Kristen and I may find ourselves spending more time apart as we work on different jobs and I stop touring so much since our dog Cosmo can’t always come on tour. Kristen and I can be codependent in some beautiful ways but I must still remember that we are ultimately on separate yet compatible soul purposes in this lifetime.

Manifesting My Best 2017:
The next three cards are addressing the three practical areas of well-being, relationships, and work. We all want to manifest the best life we can during our short time on Earth and these tend to be the three areas we obsess over the most.
fullsizerender-2The II of Cups reversed as my well-being card integrates well with what I was just writing about the Queen of Wands reversed and my relationship with Kristen. This II of Cups reversed is telling me that it is very important to remember that even though I rely on Kristen and we are getting married this year, we are ultimately two separate people and I cannot rely on her for my spiritual well-being. She is a huge influence and addition to my life and my health, but she isn’t the end all, be all, as far as my happiness and spiritual calling.

I do believe that one of my soul purposes during this life time is to experience love, be in relationships, and to bring more unity through love into this world. This isn’t just about romantic love, but all relationships. When we work with one another in any capacity, we seek to integrate our needs and goals with other souls. This is an amazing and wonderful thing to do! The II of Cups reversed suggests that I may have some difficulties in this department in the coming year. I am seeking a spiritual community here in Nashville and I’m not sure if I’m actually in the kind of open-minded and open-hearted space I need to be in in order to make that dream a reality. I tend to be an introverted and solitary person when it comes to my spirituality (another girl with much to share on her blog and with her online community but a resistance to in-person communication!). If I want to find fulfillment and foster my spiritual well-being, I am going to need to figure out a way to open more and meet people in person.

The next card shows the potential of that opening up. The IX of Cups is a jolly card to find in my relationship and love sector. This is the card of wishes fulfilled, of happiness, and of satisfaction. There is a great energy of having lasting, loving, and joyful relationships in the coming year. This is encouraging after the somewhat chastising energy of the II of Cups reversed in my well-being sector. If I can effectively foster the types of relationships I am looking for in my spiritual community, I will find great satisfaction in the new friendships and associations that I create. I must remember not simply to dream big, but to work towards my goals. The IX of Cups carries a bit of a warning not to daydream about that which you want, but to also work to manifest it. The loving, spiritual community where I want to make friends may certainly just show up at my door out of sheer luck, but it is still my responsibility to open that door!

As far as romantic relationships go, the IX of Cups couldn’t be a better sign for a happy marriage. The IX is a number of completion and integration and with the upcoming wedding, Kristen and I are telling the Universe that we are ready to take our relationship to the next level. This is a lucky sign that we will have a happy year together and may even experience some jackpots of good luck. I actually feel like we already have, even in just the first couple of days of the year! We are on our way to having our best year yet. The IX of Cups is a reminder to count my blessings, be grateful for my abundance, and to bask in each precious present moment. It is time to slow down, take stock, and enjoy, enjoy, enjoy! What is the point in having a full and happy heart if you don’t appreciate it?

The area of work and finances is ruled by The Empress reversed in my reading. This is an interesting and exciting card placement and also the card I chose last week as my overall theme of the year. Who doesn’t love The Empress card? She represents abundance, growth, fertility, and beauty. She is an inspiring sign that my work could bring abundance, creativity fulfillment, and a sense of alignment between my soul purpose and my actual actions in the world. The issue here is that The Empress is in reverse. This says to me that this won’t be an easy thing to manifest. I have the potential to be The Empress, as we all do!, but I also have a tendency to shy away from super hard work, preferring to indulge in whatever it is that pleases me the most at that moment.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I shouldn’t depend on my creativity to make me money. Yes, and that includes that tarot. I love working with the tarot. I love writing on this blog. I love the work I do with The Willow Path Tarot. But I don’t want to depend on it to pay the rent. I want to depend on it to fulfill my creative spirit, but I don’t want to bog down that spirit with financial worries or constraints. I think this Empress reversed is telling me that I’m going in the right direction here. I have found a part-time job which is simply a job. It will pay the bills and it won’t distract me from my creative purpose. I’m super happy about this guys. I want The Willow Path to be a place of fun, love, and magic. I don’t need to put pressure on that magic to produce money. I will fill this place of work with nurture, caring, and support for myself and any who enter here.

I think it’s interesting that The Empress in my career and work sector is the only Major Arcana card I got in this reading and it is in reverse at that. It is almost like a little gift from the Universe saying to me that 2017 won’t be a heavy, life-changing year. The major themes and lessons of the year will have more to do with the day-to-day act of living, developing my character, and figuring out how to relax more. The greatest emphasis on the career section is telling me not to use my creativity to make money. My love, abundance, creativity, fertility, natural state is not to work, but to be one with nature, to create, and to spread light. It is time to look within to find the beauty of life and the natural abundance that has nothing to do with bills, paychecks, or finances.

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The lesson of the VI of Pentacles reversed illuminates how the balance of the Universe shows up in our day-to-day existence. Everything we experience we understand by knowing it’s opposite. We understand giving because of receiving. We understanding having by knowing what it is to have not. We know generosity when we are met with mostly selfishness. This world of duality is presented to us everyday and we have to figure out how to achieve balance here. So my lesson for 2017 is somehow to work through these power dynamics. I can see this coming up, of course, when I talk about doing versus being. The Pentacles cards are about practicalities and getting things done on on the material plane. Here I have a Pentacle in reversed, leading me away from the material plan, perhaps to the more ethereal, astral plane. It is on this metaphysical plane that I just am. I am not what I do, I simply am.

This could point to a lesson about spirituality and about imbalance. I may find that I’m giving a lot and not receiving much. Does that mean I should stop giving? No, it means I should be more open to receiving. Everything is in balance, I just have to accept what I am offered in return for my giving. But what if I am being too generous? I should be careful this year not to overextend myself, especially in my material resources. I like to be generous with what I have, but having so little, one can get into trouble if they give away money or other resources that they don’t actually have to give. One of my goals for this year is to get out of credit card debt, and the easiest way to do that is to pay off debts instead of incurring new ones 🙂

I’ve been repeatedly saying in this reading that I want to do less in 2017, strive less, do less, and be more. I want to spend more time in meditation, practicing yoga, enjoying what I have, etc. The Queen of Cups challenges me to meet that promise to myself. She is calm. She is intuitive. She listens to her inner center before taking action. I love this Queen of Cups. I relate to her so much as a Cancer Sun sign. Yet I also struggle with her. I worry that I am too introverted and too introspective. I hesitate and I procrastinate. But is that really what I am doing when I take time for myself? The difference I want to create this year is that instead of feeling like I’m procrastinating I want to simply not to have anything to do. I want less deadlines, less projects, fewer goals, and more contentment with what I already have. The Queen of Cups is my role model, she is my ideal. She is inside of me and I must recognize and honor her and her spiritual calm.

The Queen of Cups is a healer. She is a mirror reflecting the depth of the soul. What I find inside of myself is a pure light that I want to reflect out into the world to help us all heal and be whole. I want to be nurturing, supportive, and caring. I want to shine out love and compassion. I want to inspire other people to shine out their own inner light. The world is full of shadows, many of them walking fully formed and threatening to stamp out the light that we shine. We are all made of darkness and light, that is fine. Yet the light has a responsibility to shine on those shadow places, to bring the subconscious to light and to work towards healing. I want to be a safe harbor, a place where the creative souls can be inspired, rest, heal, and figure out how to go forth with whole, shining hearts.

The year 2017 is numerologically represented by The Magician ( 2+0+1+7= 10, 1+0 = 1, one is the number of The Magician). The Magician is a magical manifestor who stands for new beginnings, creative endeavors, and personal power. When I apply the Magician energy to my year I came up with the IX of Pentacles, a lovely card of gratitude, culmination, proper use of skill, and personal satisfaction. I think I am going to like this Magician energy. I’m going to use it’s manifesting powers to actually create a year of luxury and abundance. The IX of Pentacles is self-confident, self-sufficient, and has access to the good life. I can access that good life myself if I simply decide to accept the abundance which already exists within my world. I also know that I am capable of completing the tasks before me. I have the skills and the resources I need to get things done. I am upleveling here with The Magician and his mundane Muse, the IX of Pentacles.

The overall theme of my 2017 is represented by the King of Swords. This is the only Swords card I got in this reading and I love this placement. The Swords have a masculine energy of logic and cool reason. I’ve been really emphasizing a lot of feminine energy in my reading with the Queens, Pentacles, and Cups cards. This King brings some needed balance and an action plan to my reading. First of all, the King of Swords stands for truth, honesty, fortitude, and the intellect. He will help me relate to the world around me which is still running on the same old patriarchy crap it’s been doing for thousands of years. I still need to operate in this society on many levels so it is good to have this King and his cool, calm, and wise energy to help me deal with the world around me on a practical level.

A King is also an authority on making plans come into reality. It is all well and good for me to say that I want to have more time for being, but on a practical level I also have to schedule that time into my day and find ways to integrate self-care into my life. For example, the King of Swords can see that yoga will fit nicely into my day after morning pages and schedule that in. Or he knows that I need to make chiropractor appointments, not just dream about structural alignment. Notice that the King of Swords is sitting and facing forward in this image from the Rider Waite Smith deck. I like this doing energy because it is focused on the present. This King isn’t looking to the past for answers or living ahead of himself in the future. He is dealing with the present moment, fully present and concentrating on the task at hand. I like that kind of masculine energy. Then I can float back to nonlinear time 🙂

One of my favorite things about this reading is that I got three IX cards: the IX of Wands, IX of Cups, and IX of Pentacles. The number 9 is symbolic of endings, culmination, and success. I like having three of them in this reading because it makes me think that 2017 can be a year where I fully experience my accomplishments. Instead of working towards something, I can be at somewhere. Nine is the number of Universal love, of faith, inner-wisdom, spiritual enlightenment, strength, and life purpose. I go into 2017 with a lot of optimism. I mentioned upleveling before, and it is a difficult and often painful process, but taking my life to the next level is an amazing goal. There are whole levels of happiness, achievement, physical health, and intelligence that I haven’t even dreamed of yet!

This reading has helped me focus in on what I actually want out of the year, what my intentions and goals are for 2017, and how I can work effectively towards those goals. I know it is may seem kind of silly to have my major goal for the year be: Do Less. But it’s hard to do less!, especially when doing more is supposed to earn you more money and make you feel more accomplished. More, more, more is pretty much the mantra I hear shouted at me whenever I interact with my American culture. Whatever! I don’t want to accomplish anything major this year and I’m not going to feel guilty about it. I intend to feel gratitude for my loved ones, enjoy what I have, be present and peaceful, and do whatever needs to get done with my full concentration and devotion.

Happy 2017!!!

Listening to Muses and Facing Chaos

Confession: I’ve been really into tarot lately. Okay, I know that should come as no shock since I am a tarot reader, but I think we all ebb and flow in our interest in any job, topic, sensation, discussion, whatever it is. We get overwhelmed, tired, distracted, disinterested, etc. And that’s okay. That’s normal. Our Muses may offer us a different research topic or a new job opportunity, or whatever fun thing that Muses want us humans to create on this earthly plane. I generally choose to go with the flow on what interests me so that I can create most effectively and happily.

I am happy to be deeply involved in my study of tarot these days. I’m listening to a series of interviews or podcasts about different tarot topics. When I’m out walking Cosmo along the streets of Nashville, I put in my headphones and listen to these tarot talks. These are new topics and perspectives for me which I find to be fun and interesting. I listened to one the other day on tarot birth cards and was motivated to continue my own write ups for each tarot year card, something that’s been on my back burner for months. I listened to a talk about tarot visual journaling and finally pasted some images into an empty journal I’ve had for 2 years just for that purpose. If you’re interested in listing to tarot podcasts, I’ve raved about them before on my blog, and you can buy access to them here.

You may have noticed that I wrote that blog post about the Guardian Gateway Telesummit back in July and now here I am admitting that I just started listing to it this week! What can I say- inspiration strikes you when it strikes you. I’ve been meaning to listen to these things, but I haven’t been stressing about it or mean to myself about falling down on the job. Instead I knew I would listen at just the right moment and obviously I’ve been hearing just when I need to hear at just the right moment.

The podcasts I listened to yesterday really spoke to my heart and I wanted to share with you some helpful, healing ideas that I took away from my listen. I feel like we can all use some healing right now. This was the talk by Heather Mendel and started out with her discussing (and I’m paraphrasing) the sense of overwhelm and overload in our world right now. We see politics dragged to the lowest common denominator, our airwaves are full of disrespect, and fear is everywhere in the media all around us, 24/7. It feels like we are on the precipice of something. That we are about to reach the tipping point. But the tipping point towards what?

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The Tower Shadowscapes tarot

Heather brings up the concepts of The Tower, which represents total destruction but also rebuilding and renewal. She offers us the choice of where we want to put our focus. Do we want to focus solely upon the Shadow side that is starkly evident all around us, pulling us towards chaos and obliteration? Or do we want to consider this chaos as a clearing that rips away all darkness and leaves us ready to rebuild and be reborn? No matter what, we are faced with destruction, but it is our choice whether we focus on what we lost or what we can gain from this situation.

As the Shadow side of humanity comes to the foreground now, we are offered the chance to consciously acknowledge and work to understand the shadow. It isn’t hiding anymore. We can see it for what it is. And when we do that, we can defeat it, we can take away the Shadow’s power over us by fully acknowledging and confronting it. This sounds nice enough, doesn’t it? See the Shadow, confront it, understand it, banish it’s power. Wonderful, yes! But we are all aware that the reality of that it is actually super painful and uncomfortable. I can’t say that I’m enjoying seeing the racism, sexism, xenophobia, and hatred that is swirling around us every day. The way Shadow presents itself is terrible to behold, but behold it we must.

The Tower Rider Waite Smith deck

The Tower
Rider Waite Smith deck

I like to think that my soul chose to be here right now. I made a decision to be a part of this and I can decide how my part is going to be acted out right now. I can decide to hold peace in my heart. I can decide to bring light into the shadow. I can be true to myself and share my gifts with others. It’s about the bigger picture. It’s about a larger perspective than just my little world. This chaos, shadow, and fear in the world offers us a chance to see things from a different perspective. It isn’t a perspective I would actively wish for, but it is what we’ve got, and I’m going to make the best of it.

That is the message I heard from Heather Mendel when I listened to her tarot talk yesterday. It made me feel teary-eyed, like so many things do these days. It also made me feel empowered. No, everything is not going to be okay, but I can do something anyway. I can keep shining a light into the darkness. I am hold strong to my ideals. I can be a witness and a watcher as chaos destroys our old world and do my best to shape what emerges with my shifted perspective. After total destruction we get to decide how to rebuild. We can decide to break through instead of break down.

Anxiety and Relief- It’s a Wheel of Fortune We Spin

Too often I feel like there is just too much to get done. This causes me a lot of anxiety!!!!! My head is just buzzing with ideas, projects, goals, desires, and necessities. I need to find time to write that fun blog post before my inspiration gets away. I can’t wait to do tarot readings for my beautiful clients! But if I don’t go the grocery store soon there will be no food in the house besides that jar of pickled jalapenos. Oh, and advancing info for Kristen’s tour was supposed to be done last week and now I’m out of printer ink anyway. Gotta get some exercise in, gotta make a doctor’s appointment, need to get to the post office, gotta walk the dog- wait, I have a dog?!

Guys, Kristen and I adopted a sweet rescue dog named Cosmo TODAY. We have been fostering him for the last week and can’t imagine why anyone would give up this beautiful, sweet, silly fella. He is just a wonderful dog. We almost can’t believe he has found his forever home with us. We are in love! Welcome to the family, Cosmo!

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“Oh my goodness, is this my new home? Is my name Cosmo now? Oreo was a silly name, I prefer Cosmo and I prefer to live here with my new moms.”

If you haven’t been following along with the blog, let me just fill you in that this dog adoption has been a long time coming. I’ve been talking about it for years and we hoped to get a dog at the beginning of this year finally. Moving to Nashville, tours to Europe, and LIFE got in the way of making this dream a reality. It felt like there were just too many obstacles, too many things to get done, not enough time, not enough money, etc. Besides, wouldn’t a rescue dog destroy the house? I don’t anything about dog training! Would my landlord decide we couldn’t have pets? It was all too much and I would never be ready. There would always be something that came first or got in the way and I would never get it together. Despair!

Don't despair, Deird. The right moment to find me was always now.

“Don’t despair, Deird. The right moment to find me was always now.”

 

Now, seemingly all of a sudden, and seemingly after years of waiting, I have Cosmo in my life. Just like that, fate has turned around and said, “You are ready. You do have time. You’ll figure out the money. Here is your new puppy.” I’m not going to tell you that the anxiety has melted away, but the uncertainty has, and that is a start. We are on the upswing! The Wheel of Fortune teaches us that our lives go in cycles. Sometimes we feel hopeless and sometimes we are full of hope. In our world of duality, this is the only way we can understand good fortune, by experiencing some bad luck at times.

Why the Wheel of Fortunes spins is fascinating to contemplate but ultimately irrelevant. We can spend our entire lives seeking the meaning of it all, but very few will find enlightenment. The rest of us will have to live with not knowing why things happen. It’s just the way the Universe works. It’s great to be a part of the universal plan: exhilarating, heartwarming, frustrating, agonizing, and everything in between. Whatever the point of it all is, I certainly hope I find out someday. Meanwhile, I try to be grateful. Today it is easier than other days to say exactly what I am grateful for: Cosmo. His soft brown eyes and close snuggles relieve my anxiety just a little at a time, bringing me more fully into the present moment…

"I'm here to snuggle and have a good time."

“I’m here to snuggle and have a good time. Oh, and chew up your sneakers so watch out for that.”

 

If you are super into dogs like me, you can follow Cosmo on Instagram @cosmorawks!

Vacation Away Message!

Hi there, my beautiful star seeds!  Welcome to The Willow Path Tarot! If you are new here, let me introduce myself as a traveling tarot reader. I love to travel. I’ve been to over 30 countries, 47 of the states, and have lived in many places. And guess what? This travel bandit is off in Europe for five weeks until October 6th, 2016!

One might be wondering why I decided to start a trip the day that Mercury goes retrograde, an infamously jinxed day for travel, technology, and communication. Well, sometimes you can’t plan around the stars, but you can plan your mindset! My mindset has been super organized and detail-oriented, great characteristics for a Mercury in Virgo retrograde with the double action of the Sun in Virgo. I have the logistics for this trip worked out. So I’m not worried, I’m pumped about using this grounding, earth energy to my advantage. Mercury retrograde can be a productive and perspective changing time. Use this Virgo energy to supercharge projects you want to finish up now. AND the New Moon is in Virgo today!  Virgo madness!

All of this planning, and a wonderfully successful August at The Willow Path Tarot, has left me a little worn out though. Another aspect of a retrograde period is accessing other re- words, for example: recovery, rest, relaxation, and rejuvenation. All things I could really use! For that reason, I will only be offering postcard or handwritten tarot readings for the next five weeks while I am traveling. I decided not to bring my computer on this trip and that means email readings would just be too tricky. I want to take a break from this Mac and recuperate my creative spark! I love long-hand writing though and penpals so if you would like a snail mail reading, feel free to order one any time! 

Kristen and I are off to Ireland, Germany, and Norway. If you happen to be in one of those countries and want to meet up for an in-person reading, let’s do it!  That sounds amazing. We are also open to suggestions about what we should do, see, eat, and drink while we are over there, so feel free to comment with recommendations! Kristen has already booked 15 shows (!) along the way, but there are still lots of nights off so if you happen to want to do a house show or offer a venue, that’s welcome information as well 🙂 We are so excited to be seeing new places, meeting wonderful people, and expanding our world view. If you would like to see pictures of our trip check me out on Instagram!

Until next time, sending you lots of high vibes, belly laughs, and warm hugs!

Birthday Reading for My Year of The Lovers

Another birthday, another birthday tarot reading! My birthday was July 8th and it was fantastic. My sister came in from Philly and two friends from Boston came for a visit as well and we just lived it up. That’s why my reading write up is a little late! I did schedule in the time to draw the cards on my actual birthday though, because that just makes me so happy. If you want to do a birthday reading for yourself, or have me do one for you, it really doesn’t have to be on your birthday. I just love the symbolism and the nurturing effect of spending quality time focusing on myself on my special annual day.

I’m entering a new tarot year cycle, like you do every year, and this one will be ruled by The Lovers. The Lovers represent personal values and personal belief systems. They come after the energy of The Hierophant which is society telling you the norms of behavior, emotion, action, and belief. With The Lovers comes self-made decisions and choices about what you personally believe and how you want to align your actions with those beliefs. These decisions often involve how and who we love, how we form partnerships, and what we believe and do in our relationships. I’m going to get married during my year of The Lovers! Whoot!

I will get to writing more of my thoughts on what a year of The Lovers entails at a later date, but for now, I’m exploring the possibilities of how The Lovers energy will manifest in my current year through this tarot reading. Here are the cards from The Wild Unknown Tarot deck that I drew and the meanings of the positions below:
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What do I bring with me to this year of The Lovers? Ace of Wands
Creativity, ideas, passion, drive, fecundity. This looks like the best card of the draw to me right now! 🙂 I’m bringing a lot of enthusiasm and fresh energy with me to the start of this year. The Ace of Wands reminds me of all the ideas and creative projects I have going on right now. It feels like I have something wonderful to bring with me, that I am inspired, and ready to create. I can bring sunshine, creativity, and a sense of blossoming into the coming year. There is a lot of potential with the Ace of Wands, the key is to tap into that potential, work hard, and make something happen. Pure potential is great, but it doesn’t manifest on it’s own- I have to make use of it. It is a seed that needs to be nurtured in order for it to grow. My challenge is to keep going when the initial excitement of the year’s beginning recedes and I have still have to do the work of caring for and growing my projects.

What is The Lovers beneficial influence?- V of Swords reversed 
Learning to get along, figuring out how to communicate, refraining from competition. The V of Swords reversed signals the cessation of the classic struggle inherent in all 5 cards in the tarot deck. The Swords often have to do with a battle of the mind, so this year could find me learning how to quiet the negative voice inside my head that says, “You’re not doing as well as others. You are not fitting in. You need to beat the competition. You are not worthy of love. You are doing a bad job at life.” Or any other dark thought pattern that acts to separate myself mentally from those around me because I’ve decided that we are at odds. The Lovers is a card of harmony, it’s about working together towards common goals, it’s realizing that we are all one, and there is room for each of us to succeed. This year is a time for compromise and focusing on shared goals. It is a year for learning to love myself and to value my contribution to the world.

What blocks or oppositions need I be aware of?- III of Swords reversed
Refusal to make decisions, carrying past hurts, stuck in a negative space. Ah yes, the challenge for me this year will also be about the mental blocks that keep me from feeling integrated and whole with the Universe. We are all guilty of getting stuck thinking about how things have gone wrong in the past and sinking into our suffering and sorrow. Life is suffering! Yes, but it is also joy. It is a balance. It is a duality, just like The Lovers. This card shows us the yin and yang of life and asks us to make an effort to figure out the process of integration into a whole self. The III of Swords reversed is a clear warning to me that I will tend towards the negative this year, shying away from compromise, holding onto grudges, and keeping a narrow worldview. That is basically how the mind works in general, so my obstacle is known and acknowledged. Now all I have to do is keep that awareness and not let it stop me from working towards the integrated harmony of The Lovers. That’s it!?

What do I need to learn during this cycle?- The Hermit reversed
Coming out of my shell, spiritual connection to others, involvement in the world. I love being The Hermit, spending my time in quiet contemplation and isolation, exploring my calm inner center and the spiritual mysteries of life. This Hermit behavior is solitary though, and a year of The Lovers is about connection. I would love to learn this year how to connect and how to enjoy that sharing with others on a spiritual level. I want more people to find my tarot business and join with me on this path of discovery and self-awareness. I want to create a supportive and nurturing community that helps to lift each other up, instead of relying solely on my own resources to grown and protect myself. This is a difficult thing for me, it will not come naturally. The next card, The Emperor, has some advice on how I can effectively leave my shell and be more extroverted in the world.

How can I best incorporate these lessons into my life?- The Emperor
Confidence, authority, extroversion, nonstop power poses. The Emperor is the epitome of outward confidence, discipline, and authority. He truly knows what he knows and is not afraid or shy to exhibit that. The masculine energy here means doing and involvement, not being and isolation. I need to define my structures and trust in my foundation. Honestly, I feel like I do have a lot of self-confidence, I’m just not particularly keen on sharing that with others. I feel like the message here is, “Just do it.” Use fire energy to do without overplanning, overthinking it, or hesitation. I really can’t accomplish my goals by being the Hermit, no matter how much I would love it if that happened. Perhaps a bit of time working with the outward energy of the Emperor is enough so that I can build up a sustainable business and then go back within in the future, where I like to hang out.

What area of my life will be most influenced by The Lovers?- IV of Pentacles reversed
Financial stability will be difficult to achieve, feelings of security in the world will be lacking. Things are not looking so well financially for me at this time. Moving to Nashville, car repairs, medical bills, it all adds up and The Willow Path Tarot isn’t quite at the point where it covers all the expenses, nor is touring with Kristen. The IV of Pentacles reversed is all about holding onto your money, perhaps even greedily, but definitely not spending wads of cash on whatever might be tantalizing and shiny in the moment. Perhaps this year I will better define my relationship to money, or at least define it at all. Right now I feel like I am a super responsible money manager, paying my bills, and knowing to the penny what my cashflow situation is. Yet at the same time I am a super good vacation planner budgeting meticulously for the longest, most fun trip. I can earn it, but I can also spend it. What will make me happier though? Getting a steady job and having some money in the bank? Or being self-employed and having the freedom to make my own schedule but without that financial security? Perhaps this year of The Lovers will help me align my financial goals and values with my actual work actions.

What will be the most likely result at the end of this year?- Father of Pentacles reversed
Finances out of wack, time management skills lacking, not succeeding in being an Emperor. The way things are going right now I’m really resisting the need to get out of my introverted state and do more out in the world. The Father of Pentacles is the ultimate business manager. He knows how to market himself, set his financial goals, and work to achieve them. I’m really good at knowing what my goals are, but not on the part about working and moving towards those goals. I make great plans, but I do not execute well. If I truly want to succeed in growing my business, creating a firm financial structure, and feeling secure in my physical world, I need to be more present and involved in that physical world. I need to show up, connect, ground, and interact. This is my wake up call that if I don’t change my outlook on work, home, and finances, I’m not going to make any progress in ruling this domain during this year of The Lovers. The Lovers do not lend me much help here because they are associated with Gemini and Air, which is so my thing, living in the cerebral world of thinking and planning. The energy energy of the Father of Pentacles reversed reminds me that I may be in my air element with a Lovers year, but my element does not support the kind of physical security in the world that I am craving right now. I need to adjust course and work towards my goals more concretely.

Okay, well there you have it, my birthday reading for myself. I feel like there is big work to be done this year and I know where to focus my energy if I am committed to growth. I know there are tons of grounding things I can do for myself to support that growth and I am excited to put in the effort. My life feels purposeful and directed, now my challenge is to follow that feeling.  Wish me luck!

Greetings from the Mary-el Tarot Deck

For my birthday last week I was gifted the Mary-el Tarot deck by Marie White, published by Schiffer. This deck has been on my wish list for a number of years and I was super excited to receive it from my sister. I was also delighted to see that the deck came in a cute box with a magnetic lid and a companion book. I decided to ask the deck for a message and found it has some pretty deep lessons to teach me. It’s no wonder with this intense deck that big life wisdom is contained for me in the cards. The theme of the deck is described as “the alchemy of the soul; of finding balance, symmetry, mastery of the self, and becoming your own genius.”

Here is what the companion book had to say about the cards I drew from each of the elements from the Minor Arcana and one card from the Major Arcana:

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The Hierophant: “Babylon is a gateway to the powerful truths that lie inside us and are completely blasphemous to any who believe you need something external for redemption, salvation, happiness, an immortal soul, and life after death. She is a monster to those who fear their own power. She is a devil to those who fear the vision of their true self.” (pg 27) “Here you will dive into the jet black pit of earth, completely separate from God, and face your deepest fears and your shadows… And if successful, you will see it for what it is, embrace it and love it as part of yourself and you will become more whole and powerful and illusions about the earth will begin to melt away.” (pg 28)

Six of Wands: “Slay your dragons, conquer your demons. Be direct and forceful.” (pg 105) “The dragons are whatever opposes you or your situation. Spiritually the dragons are darkness and ignorance within ourselves. Illuminate the darkness with fire.” (pg 104)

Five of Swords: Work through the pain and suffering, illness, depression. Whatever is afflicting you, you must keep going. Question all paranoia. Resolve conflicts and disputes with reason and intelligence.” (pg 99)

Nine of Cups: “Accept who/what/where you are with compassion, love, amazement, and humor.” (pg132) “In our earthly incarnation we live with both black and white in somewhat equal measure and they weave themselves into the checkered ground pattern that we walk upon. No matter where you step, you will surely have some black and some white under your feet.” (pg 130)

Knight of Discs: “Don’t look outside for the answer to the problem, look inside to find peace. You already have everything you are looking for. Look in your own home. Do not have doubt in yourself, you are made for this and already have all the tools. Take the middle path, use just what you need, no more or less.” (pg 162)
WOW, that’s a lot to take in, but my overall impression is one of finding wholeness within myself. I am made up of both light and shadow, happiness and depression, health and illness, loss and gain, suffering and relief. I am part of the black and white duality of existence. When I embrace this, my wholeness, and my connection to both Earth and Spirit, I am in the present and I am me. This isn’t a goal or a static state. Life is a continuously unfolding balance between different states, cycling around and around in never-ending flow. Somedays I will find the force to conquer my demons head on. Somedays I will have the mental fortitude to reason my way through my demons. Somedays I will find joy and wonder in my amazing accomplishments. Somedays I will stride along the middle path between Earth and Spirit with certitude. Every day I will be a conduit for that connection without end.