All Beginnings are Possible with the New Moon in Aquarius, February 4th, 2019

Happy New Moon in Aquarius! It’s that time again- time to set our intentions for the coming moon cycle. And guess what this New Moon is good for in the intention setting department? Any new beginning you can imagine! How awesome is that? There is so much potential to set off in any direction you desire at this time. If you are dreaming it, you are ready to go for it. And chances are that you have been dreaming it for a while now, clearing and cleaning space to make room for the new. Don’t let this amazing opportunity pass by. It’s time to seize the day and get your show on the road.

Your new beginning could be big or small, it is the intention you put into achieving that beginning that is most important. You can live that intention starting right now. Perhaps you, like me, haven’t gotten around to setting intentions and goals for the year 2019. Or maybe you just like to make your big plans for the year when the New Moon is in Aquarius, coinciding with the Lunar New Year/Chinese New Year/Imbolc. It finally feels like winter is tipping ever so slightly towards spring and there is a hint of kinetic energy in the air. Winter and hibernation will come to an end soon. What will you create during the next cycle of your life, both with the moon and with the calendar year?

Let’s look at what the tarot has to offer us for advice at this New Moon in Aquarius:

Ostara Tarot: Page of Wands rx, Wheel of Fortune, II of Cups rx, King of Cups rx, IX of Wands

What energy will help you best set intentions for the moon cycle?– Page of Wands rx
You need to go inside, dive into your essential center, and start to boost up your self-esteem. There is a tremor of self doubt undermining your creative vision at this time. You don’t quite have your feet under you. Perhaps you lack self-confidence due to past attempts to achieve your goals that didn’t end with the intended results. There are no mistakes! Everything you have tried before has taught you important lessons that you are ready to integrate into your next attempt. Never stop trying. There is a creative vision inside of you, full of inspiration and enthusiasm. It’s worth the effort to stoke that spark of fire inside of you. This your pep talk from me, but you could also use a good pep talk from your own soul. Look into your eyes in the mirror and affirm to yourself that you have killer ideas, plenty of energy, and you will go out and make things happen for yourself!

What area of your life is ready for a new beginning this moon cycle?- Wheel of Fortune
Like I wrote in the introduction to this reading, anything goes at this New Moon in Aquarius. The Wheel of Fortune is spinning and you can put out your hand to stop it at any point that ignites your interest. Your new beginning may come as a surprise, a stroke of luck, a feeling of destiny as an unlooked for door suddenly opens before you. Or your new beginning could be a long mulled over and highly anticipated step in a direction you’ve been considering for quite sometimes. No matter how the path opens up before you, do not fail to start walking down it. Keep your mind open and optimistic. Often the paths offered to us lead where we want to go, but not in the way we wanted to get there. You can’t always design your path, but at least you can design your attitude.

How can you be your unique self, honest and true?-  II of Cups rx
The thing about being your unique self is that this newly authentic and honest expression of yourself can rock the boat of your routine world. You may be super jazzed about changes you want to make and self-development work you want to do, but people around you, including your most cherished loved ones, might not be as excited to see you change. The pressure to conform, to stay the same, to keep the status quo can be intense. This is because you changing implies that other people have to change, and people don’t like to change when they feel pressured and out of control. So your challenge this month will be- not giving a fuck what other people think of you. Yes, easier said than done, but when the end result is you feeling like you are true to yourself- it’s worth the risk. Some people in your life may jump ship now that you’ve changed, but you can bless their journeys and steer your own course now. It’s going to take courage, but the love you have for yourself in your own heart will buoy you up during the storm.

How can you look at your life in an inventive new way?- King of Cups rx
It’s time to develop a new relationships with your own emotions. Let’s be honest, sometimes our emotions get the better of us and run the show… often into the ground. You may use your emotions as an excuse for your escapist or addictive behaviors. You can also use positive emotions to make excuses, like doing things out of love or because they feel good. But we all know that our emotions lie to us all the time, they manipulate us and lead us astray. Yet, we still seem to go back to them, stoke them up, use them to get what we want. There’s gotta be a better way to live! Maybe a good first step for the month ahead is to simply acknowledge how you work with your emotions, especially how you seek to avoid the “unpleasant” ones and use the “nice” ones to cover up and avoid pain. Developing a new relationship with painful emotions, allowing them to exist and pass through you is the next step, but let’s not get ahead of ourselves here. Start with just watching how you weasel away from unpleasantness and eventually the noticing will lead you to the next step of going through your darkest pain to come out again into the light.

How can you express yourself more clearly and creatively?- IX of Wands
Express yourself with courage and consistency. You have something to say and you will feel vulnerable, exposed, and revealed by proclaiming yourself. We already talked about how a lot of people may not like what you have to say. The IX of Wands assures you that you should persevere, though. Nothing good comes from conforming to the crowd and believing the naysayers. When it feels like everyone is out to get you and you’re depleted and losing ground, just stop and breath. You are strong. You are brave. You can keep going. Meditate on the paradox that you are your highest self right now and also constantly evolving towards your higher self. This moment is a test of your faith. Be resilient, flexible, and adaptable, but never give up!

Okay, that is the tarot reading for everyone at this Aquarius New Moon. If you’re inspired to get a personal reading from me, hop on over to my readings page and order one today! Blessed New Moon and keep up the good work!

A Personal Reading for the New Year 2019

Happy New Year! Each year I love to sit down and enjoy some “me time” by delving into the energy of my year ahead using the insight and guidance of the tarot. I use the spread that I offer to everyone on my email tarot readings page so you can get an idea of what my reading style is and if you would like a similar reading for yourself. I’ll be offering this reading until January 13th, so you can order one any time up until then 🙂

I wish each of us the positivity and perseverance to make 2019 an incredibly satisfying and enjoyable year for ourselves, and for each other. 

Now, here’s my reading for me!

The Wild Unknown Tarot Deck

1. A 2019 overall theme card: V of Cups reversed
2. A positive influence to guide me: II of Swords reversed
3. An energy that will challenge my growth: The High Priestess reversed
4. A message to promote abundance, gratitude, and healing: VI of Swords 
5. Relationship/love influence ahead: The Empress reversed
6. Career/work energy ahead: IV of Pentacles reversed
7. Wellbeing/spiritual calling coming: II of Cups

Let the reading begin! The first thing I noticed about these cards is that I drew mostly reversals. This is a call to go inside and process a major change in my outer world with a corresponding transition of my internal world. 2018 was an incredibly challenging year for me, perhaps more so than any year of my life. I suffered a major loss that caused me to swing between denial and depression for the last six months. Change in life situations can be difficult to impossible when a corresponding inner transition does not accompany the outward changes of circumstances. I’m ready to accept my loss and start healing.

The V of Cups reversed as the theme card of my year ushers in a year of acceptance, healing, and moving on. I’m at a turning point, as every 5 card indicates. I’m still in the struggle, but the reversal shows me that I am making progress, I am ready to move on and acceptance that the past cannot be changed. I am determined to release and let go, but also uncertain of what the future holds. I feel like I’m in an in between place, processing an ending before starting a developmental journey that will be the beginning of a new chapter of my life. The V of Cups reversed reminds me to be gentle and quiet, especially when it comes to my emotions which can be volatile and erratic. Dealing with disappointment, regret, and loss requires substantial time and patience and I want to give those to myself this coming year.

The acceptance that I feel gives me hope for the next chapter of my life. I intend to be more self-aware, more empathetic, stronger, wiser, self-validating, self-possessed and more creative. I have a lot of exploration, reflection, and redesign work to do in my head, heart, and very spirit. Hopefully, the outcome of that internal work will be a more evolved version of myself, built upon the new knowledge I gained during this transition period. The V of Cups reversed gives me encouragement that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, that painful, messy growth is sometimes the best option available, and that I will be okay.

The II of Swords reversed is a positive influence to guide me in the year ahead. Honestly, this feels more like a warning that a warm hug. I am confused and disoriented about what comes next in my life, and have a tendency to take in a lot of information and advice in order to choose my best path. Perhaps the II of Swords reversed is patting me on the back for getting off of social media for a while. I decided to put Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter out of my life for the foreseeable future. My brain is overwhelmed with new information from all angles, which just isn’t helpful. I want to make decisions about my future that are based on my values and what’s best for me. Being in touch with that inner knowing can be difficult when I bombard myself with all kinds of messages about how to life my best life. Even positive, life-affirming messages can be too much for a soul in full-on growth phase. I need to keep it simple and quiet.

The II of Swords also shows the positive influence of taking a break from trying to integrate two opposing points of view. Being in disagreement and conflict for the last half of the year has left me frazzled and weary of continuing to state my opinions, philosophies, and beliefs without any change or compromise. The space between viewpoints feels like the blackhole depicted in the II of Swords above. Instead of a vibrant and alive space, it feels dull and dead. Taking a break from that conflict, just focusing on myself, and being quiet sounds fantastic at the moment. This space to myself is a positive influence in 2019.

The High Priestess reversed as the energy that will challenge my growth really supports this idea of quiet and calm. This card represents the subconscious and the use of intuition. Being a tarot reader, you won’t be surprised that I highly value the use of intuition in decision making and planning out life path steps. It may surprise you to learn that I don’t feel like I have been connected to my intuition. The denial that I wrote of earlier is part of that. I had created an identity for myself based upon my life situation instead of upon my eternal self or “me-ness”. When the reality of my life situation changed, I didn’t know who I was anymore, which is an unhealthy way to live. Denying the need for internal transition and creation of a self-validated identity blocked my intuition last year. It would burst out in fits and tantrums (literally!) but then I would shove it away again. “It’s time to change, Deird. You have to let go. Your reality has changed and you can’t stay the same.” But I wouldn’t listen.

My challenge in the year ahead is to start listening to my intuition again. The II of Swords reversed shows me stuck in a situation in which I can’t figure out which path forward will have the least negative consequences for me. The High Priestess reversed calls me to trust and have faith that I’ll pick the right path for me if I just quiet down and listen. One of the challenges that comes with this is that this quiet time is very self-focused after a period of intense interest and dependence on other people’s emotions and needs. It is extremely hard for me to put my needs first and breaking from this pattern requires intense effort on my part. Learning to acknowledge my own wants and need, self-validate, and hold onto myself in the face of other’s demands is my current challenge. Meeting that challenge will allow amazing growth for me.

The hard messages of the last two cards are softened by the healing energy of the VI of Swords. Finally an upright card! and this one shows the shift towards a new mindset and perspective on life. It may be difficult, dark, and unwanted but it is definitely happening, no if, ands, or buts about it.  I must remember, though, that relief is not withheld from me now or in the future. This transition holds healing, it is a rite of passage, it is a movement from one stage of life to the next. The movement is subtle and sometimes excruciatingly slow, but there is a shifting and I will arrive on a distant shore a healthy and more whole version of myself. There is no reason to look back with regret or imagine that the past wasn’t “real.” The past was what I was capable of as the person I was at the time. Now I am transforming and will be capable of more.

The VI of Swords often indicates travel and that is something that I think would be very healing for me. I am not in a place financially where I can afford travel, but making plans and saving up are the only things currently on my agenda for the year. I always love to travel, it allows me to stay present in the moment much more easily than in my day-to-day life. Being in the present is a wonderful place to be. It is the time when everything is happening. I’m grateful for all the opportunities that I’ve had to travel in the past and hopeful and excited about future possibilities for travel. I also recognize that I am traveling at this moment, just not physically, all the movement is within me, happening at a glacial and elegant pace.

The VI of Swords indicates a low mood, the blues, and depression. The thing for me to remember is that this is normal and that pruning back, healing, regeneration, and new growth can all happen here. It certainly doesn’t feel good to be depressed but it is a necessary part of the transition process. Everyone has their winter, when everything dies and the world gets cold. At this darkest time, we can still remember the warmth of the summer and hold hope for the spring. Taking things one day at a time, noting what progress I do make, and being gentle and patient with myself are all recommended.

I drew The Empress reversed for my love/relationship energy going into 2019. Perhaps it hasn’t been abundantly obvious if you don’t know me, but this loss that I’m dealing with is one of love and relationship. The Empress reversed also indicates a need for some alone time to believe in myself again, to get in touch with my own needs and wants in life, outside of my relationship. I’ve been neglecting my own power, my own place, my own life path. I’m uncertain about what the future of my relationship is, besides knowing that what is was is over and what comes next is unknown- something or nothing that is left to be seen.

The Empress reversed reminds me that I need to be careful not to place myself in a situation where I’m waiting to see what happens, though. This isn’t about my relationship anymore, whatever it was is over, and whatever it is going to be is uncertain. In that uncertainty I need to work on my own emotional issues and mental problems and spiritual calling. This is independent and personal work that I’m doing, not to try and patch things up or pass the time waiting, but rather now is my time. It’s all about my relationship with myself. I want to believe in myself again. I want to trust myself. I want to validate myself. I want to live my values. I want to get ahold of myself and feel together internally again.

The Empress reversed is also an indicator for depressed mood and negativity, this time in the area of love. What can I say- I’m a bag of laughs these days!  Okay, see I still do have a sense of humor, but I’m also okay with being sad. I’m not going to fight it. I’m not going to pretend everything is fine. I’m not going to pretend I’m enjoying this. I’m not going to try and avoid, ignore, or speed up this winter mood. Sometimes I laugh because I say I love personal development and growth, but then when I’m presented with it so obviously and immensely, I’m all, “No thanks! This sucks!” It doesn’t help to remind myself that I will look back on this time as hugely meaningful and important, but I do still know that that is true. 

The presence of The High Priestess reversed and The Empress reversed indicates a need to connect more positively with my feminine energy. I have been passive to the point of being disconnected from my abundant creativity and personal life energy. This doesn’t mean I have to push myself to do, do, do and create. Rather it’s time to nurture and love myself quietly and calmly. Building myself back up may take a while as I reconnect to my calm inner center, my ability to manifest magic, my inner beauty and my inspiration to create. This is a gentle process with no need for the pressure to suddenly be restored and in the full swing of creation. Life is a complex interconnected system, not a machine that can be quickly fixed with new parts. A solid foundation of self love, self esteem, and self possession can flow out into all areas once it is firmly established. That is something I really need to work on this year with The Empress and The High Priestess as my guides.

For the work and career energy of my 2019 I drew the IV of Pentacles reversed. This points out a relative lack of interest in career stability in my life at the moment. Going through so much turmoil in my relationship department has really pulled my focus away from the material world of finances and work. Of course, I still need money to live my life and I’ve been mostly focused on not spending too much so that I can feel secure that I’m not living outside of my means. This could be a great time figure out what my needs actually are and step outside of my usual comfort zone of work to try and meet those needs. It doesn’t look like 2019 is shaping up to be a financially successful year, but knowing that that energy is lacking in my life right now could be just the kick in the pants I need to start turning things around for myself.

Lastly, I drew the II of Cups for the energy of wellbeing and spirituality that 2019 brings with it. I love, love, love seeing this card as the last one in the reading. It evokes a sense of self love and living in alignment with my values that I really need right now. When a person truly loves themselves, validates themselves, and can stand on her own two feet, that is when she is most capable of forming meaningful and lasting relationship with another person. I aim to see myself positivity, honor and respect myself, treat myself how I want to be treated by others, so to say. The II of Cups comforts me that I am following my spiritual calling and doing what is best for my wellbeing at this time. I’ve felt out of alignment with the Universe, like the Universe is playing cruel and unusual tricks on me. I know that that is not how the Universe works, I just can’t see the patterns, the master plan, all of destiny laid out before me- and I never will! But I will see pieces, and I will be consoled, and certain things that I need to know now will come to light in their own time and way.

As far as physical wellbeing, the II of Cups suggest balance and moderation in all things. When we take care of our emotional needs, we often end up simultaneously addressing the physical ailments of the body. When we work and relax in equal measure, it can quiet the mind and the body. When we spend as much time exploring and uncovering our inner world as we do creating in the outer world, we derive more peace and joy in life. This year I need to remember to harmonize the duality within me between the internal feminine and the external masculine energies. This is wonderful advice for anyone but especially those who have been doing far too much and are getting increasingly overwhelmed by the demands of the modern world and society. Maybe you too want to take a break from social media for a while?  😉

Okay, I am going to leave it on that positive note. This reading was uncomfortably personal for me and I may only leave it up for the short time that this reading spread is available to order on the email readings page. This is a great example of how a tarot reading can bring up present uncomfortable truths, things we don’t want to face but when we do, we grow exponentially. Are you ready to discover the transformative power of tarot?

Happy New Year 2019!!

Relationships Reflection with the New Moon in Libra, October 8, 2018

The New Moon we are graced with today is in Libra, the sign ruled by the planet Venus. If you’re into astrology at all, you’ve probably heard much talk recently about the Venus retrograde cycle that is currently taking place. Starting on October 5th, and lasting for the next 40 days till November 16th, Venus will appear to backtrack across the sky and the zodiac signs of Scorpio into Libra. The retrograde movement of the planets is associated with going within, reflection, and reassessment. These energies are particularly potent within the realm of Libra/Venus which rules relationships, the feminine, balance, love, and values. We will all feel a summons to reexamine our relationships: our romantic relationships, friendships, business partnerships, and most importantly our relationship to ourselves. This is a great time to ask the tarot for some guidance on what intentions can best help us navigate this moon cycle for optimum balance and harmony. Here are some prompts for you to try:

~What intention can I set to help me focus on emotional balance during this moon phase?
~What intention can I set to help me create harmony and equality in my relationships?
~What intention can I set to help me deal with Venus’ call for self reflection and reassessment of the past?

Here is a reading for us all using my favorite fall deck, the Zombie Tarot:

The Zombie Tarot: Five of Cups, King of Cups, Page of Pentacles

~What intention can I set to help me focus on emotional balance during this moon phase?
Five of Cups
The V of Cups signifies difficult emotions such as regret, longing, grief, and sadness. It often comes up at a time when it feels like all has been lost. You are faced with crushing disappointment and have no idea what could lift your dark mood. The world looks bleak. There is a tendency now to obsess about what has passed, what has caused you pain, what is gone and can never return. The imbalance in the world is that feelings, emotions, and matters of the heart are not as important and meaningful as power, money, and big business. When people’s lived experiences don’t matter, especially those of women, what is the point of society? Who does it actually serve?

At this New Moon, set the intention to move away from the darkest depths of grief and despair. In order to bring balance into your life you will need to allow for hope and optimism to be present and acknowledged. There is no need to question the validity of your pain, the horror of your past, the sadness you have felt. That pain is real and that pain is acknowledged. The thing is, you can’t stay there and relive it forever. That isn’t for your highest good, that isn’t going to solve any of your issues, that isn’t going to make it better- ever. What will make your situation better, and consequently improve the lives of all those in your life that love and care about you, is to open yourself up to the possibility of future happiness. Appreciating the small moments of your day, practicing gratitude and kindness, and saying yes to what you DO want- this will help you move forward and heal. Set the intention to invite hope and love into your life and leave guilt, doubt, and grief behind.

~What intention can I set to help me create harmony and equality in my relationships?
King of Cups
The King of Cups is empathetic, diplomatic, generous, and deeply kind. He is compassionate, creative, understanding, and aware. These are all characteristics that we should set our intentions towards being in the month ahead. The King of Cups is the ultimate symbol of harmony and equality embodied in human form that the tarot has to offer us. This card comes as a very good sign that we have the emotional maturity and depth of character to manage and improve our relationships during this moon cycle and continue that through the whole Venus retrograde cycle.

There’s a certain amount of restraint to the King of Cups as well, he doesn’t overflow with emotion but rather balances emotion with intellect. He knows how to communicate matters of the heart without emotional manipulation, waterfalls of tears, or screaming matches about who cares more. He has control over his emotions, knows how to set boundaries between personal and shared feelings, and can provide stability and support for those around him. Set the intention this month to act as a King of Cups yourself when dealing with issues of balance and harmony in your relationships. How would you like to be treated? How would you like to be spoken to? How can you compromise and negotiate? The King of Cups is here to back you up with quiet, sensitive, and understanding vibrations.

~What intention can I set to help me deal with Venus’ call for self reflection and reassessment of the past?
Page of Pentacles
A Page is always a good sign for new beginnings, just like a New Moon. This Page has a rather responsible and determined youthful energy, bringing fresh opportunity or possibility to your life. His appearance signifies a real exuberance for learning about yourself by diving into the self-reflection and reassessment demanded by this Venus retrograde with an eagerness to learn new things about yourself. Now is the chance to see your past in the bright light and perspective of your present self!  Set the intention to go into this cycle with an open mind and a willingness to learn new things about yourself.

Maybe you’re not the type of person who delights in processing the past and rehashing old issues, well- you just might have to do it anyway this season. Don’t be afraid to go down this road of analysis. The Page of Pentacles is offering up many learning opportunities in a spirit of wonder, but also practicality. Don’t be surprised if your self assessment unearths some old dreams about home, finances, work, or your body that were lost along the way. You could find yourself revved up by a great business idea you had before, a renewal of a project around the house, a job pop up you always wanted, or a refreshed diet and exercise plan. The point is, set the intention to be wide-eyed and open to possibility, the Page of Pentacles isn’t adapt at reengaging with the past, but he sure can make the most practical use of what he finds there.

Okay, there you have it, a New Moon Reading for Libra. I hope you found it insightful and useful. If you would like to get a personalized reading, I am available!  I do email readings, online readings (Skype or Google Hangout), and in-person readings in Nashville, TN. Hit me up at thewilllowpath@gmail.com if you would like to set something up!

A Practical and Grounding New Moon in Virgo, September 9, 2018

Welcome to another Moon cycle. It’s time to take a moment to celebrate fresh energy and set intentions with the New Moon in Virgo. Virgo energy is earthy, practical, organized, and body focused. This is a wonderful time to set intentions around promoting your own physical wellbeing. What healthy habits would you like to incorporate into your daily routine? Maybe pick just one today to commit to for the coming 4 weeks. Even if you have 10 routines you’d love to make a part of your life, wouldn’t it be absolutely wonderful if you did even one of those habits every day? You can start small, adding another routine each Moon cycle instead of trying to do it all at once. Trying to do it all at once is a recipe for overwhelm and burn out.

Let’s do a tarot spread to help us focus in on a particular habit or routine that would best suit us in the month ahead. Here are some handy questions you can ask your deck:

The development of what healthy habit or routine is best supported by this New Moon?
What advice will help me focus on and commit to this new practice?

How can I be gentle and patient with myself as I learn and grow?

Be aware that Virgo can bring perfectionist energy. This is where the need for compassion comes into your month. Developing a new healthy routine is not always a snap, in fact, it usually is quite hard. You will have slip ups, reverse your progress, take two steps forward and one step back. The key is to not be overly hard on yourself. Work on developing practical and reasonable expectations that don’t include perfectionism at all. If you believe that the only way to be successful is to be perfect, you need to take a step back and ask where this belief is coming from. Trust me, it is not valid. You can be wildly successful and abundantly joyful and make mistakes ALL THE DAMN TIME. You will need to constantly remind yourself of this in the month ahead as you work towards your healthiest life, develop new routines that support that healthy life. Accept slow progress, even agonizingly slow progress!

Here is a tarot reading I did for us collectively using the above spread:

Rider Waite Smith deck: Knight of Cups rx, III of Pentacles rx, The Chariot rx

The development of what healthy habit or routine is best supported by this New Moon?- Knight of Cups reversed
Emotional health is inextricably linked to physical health. When your emotions are out of control, chaotic, overwhelming, etc, that emotional pain easily manifests as physical ailments in the body. This month ahead, it is a lovely idea to make a daily habit of reflecting upon your emotional state. Check in with yourself to see if you are suppressing, avoiding, or hiding your emotions. When emotions get bottled up they reek havoc on our health. You could make a daily habit of sitting with an uncomfortable or unwanted emotion and letting it pass through you.

A way to practice allowing emotions to pass through you is to first sit quietly with 5 or so minutes to yourself. Now bring to mind a situation that is causing you pain, notice the emotion it causes you, be it anger, sadness, disappointment, etc. Then hold that emotion, feel it in your physical body. Now, for the tricky part- let the story behind the emotion go, let it fade away so that it is just you and the emotion without any story attached. Within a minute, 2 minutes at the most, you will feel the negative emotion slowly lose force and fade away. Now the emotion has passed through you and your physical health can feel the positive effects of releasing that emotion.

I’m going to try doing this practice daily for the next month, spending a little time each day letting emotions pass through me. When you practice something it becomes more natural and easy over time. I like the idea of a practice of experiencing my emotions and then letting them pass out of my experience instead of hanging around and hurting me. This type of emotional work is supported by a lovely placement of Neptune in Pisces at this time. We can allow Virgo energy to provide you with the structure and organizational energy to bring a new practice into your life.

What advice will help me focus on and commit to this new practice?-
III of Pentacles reversed
The idea of building something permanent, of working to construct a beautiful perfect structure, needs to get tossed out the window. Remember, there is no perfection in life. There also is no end goal to all this doing. If you focus on doing and making things as the point of your life, you will always have to make more, more, more. Is that how you want to live- never satisfied with what you’ve built, always putting on “finishing” touches until you’ve created something far beyond a Rococo monstrosity? The idea that life is linear and we are always on the up and up, is not helpful. It’s time for a new point of view.

We actually move and live in cycles. Energy ebbs and flows, in and out, up and down, this way and that. This knowledge is why I work with the Moon cycles to connect with the cyclical nature of life. You can’t get too attached to structures or even versions of yourself, everything is always changing. It’s all about doing what is right for you right now. Tear down the ego, take apart your identity, deconstruct your beliefs and then notice how you are still you. You have an essential self that isn’t subject to all these cycles of your life, it is your unchanging soul. Isn’t that nice? You can’t stop being you, but you can stop identifying with old versions of your personality and move on. Perhaps this month, as we all practice allowing emotion to move through us, we can confront the emotions that we think of as “us” and instead focus on releasing a past version of the ego. 

How can I be gentle and patient with myself as I learn and grow?-
The Chariot reversed
Ya’ll, this isn’t easy work I’m talking about doing. Deconstructing the self and releasing painful emotions- that sounds fucking tough. Let’s remember that we don’t have to be perfect about it, we don’t have to do it the “right way”, and we don’t even need to finish it. Is there any “finishing” before we die? The Chariot reversed reminds us to take it easy, to cruise along, to take side roads that look interesting, to sit back and enjoy the ride. Yes, we are making progress and we are doing things to try and live our best lives, but there is no rush. Rushing this can lead to frustration and impatience. Look for ways that you are making progress, take notice of the small steps, and be grateful for all that you do. You are doing so much!

You are so awesome for even trying, for caring, for being conscious, for making any effort at all. Does it feel like more people are making that effort, more people are waking up? It can be frustratingly slow progress but you have deep reserves of ambition and drive and determination. You’re not going to give up even when the road is bending out of view and it’s hard to say where you’re heading. You’re not going to give up when the ideas of “success” or “finishing” or “reaching your goal” are taken away. You’re inching towards a new paradigm, a new understanding of what your soul purpose is here on Earth at this time. The Virgo New Moon offers you energy to heal yourself by taking small daily action towards your health: physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual.

Okay, I hope you enjoyed this New Moon tarot reading for the Virgo Moon cycle. I’m wishing you love, health, healing, and strength in the month ahead!

A Self-Love Message from The New Moon in Leo, August 11, 2018

Another Moon cycle has passed! At this New Moon in Leo we are gifted the last eclipse of the year- thank goodness! There have been a series of 3 eclipses starting on July 12th and ending on August 11th, activating significant shakedowns in people born with personal planets and points at approximately 14 to 24 degrees of the fixed signs of Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, and Aquarius. My Moon sign is right in there and honestly, I’ve just been feeling a big need for change, even at the same time that I just don’t have energy for it, feel pretty uncomfortable about it, and am resisting the instability. Yes, change is good in theory, but the enacting of it is quite difficult!!

Anywho, if you’re feeling the pressure to create new systems in your life, this New Moon is a great time to sit down and reflect on what aspects of your life routine no longer fit with your current picture of who you want to be. It could be something really obvious, “Why am I still doing this!?” Or it could be an activity that you greatly enjoyed in the past, but now isn’t helping you to grow. It can be hard to let go of feelings, people, work, or hobbies that once filled us with such great joy, but doing this clearing out is important. Do your clear with love and attention, allowing the practice of gratitude for all of those things while still letting them go to create space for the new, for what wants to come through you now.

The Leo energy of this New Moon is a wonderful support for this process of change. Leo builds self-confidence and self-love. Leo shines out the brilliant light from within. Leo knows how to have fun, be creative, and enjoy the shit out of life. This reinvention process, this clearing out and letting go, this leveling up to a higher vibration, all that can be enjoyable and life-giving with the Fire energy of Leo at your back. Let’s each ask the tarot some really simple questions about setting out intentions for this New Moon Cycle. Try this spread out and let me know how it goes!

In what ways can I increase my self-confidence and be courageous in my actions?
How can I expand my self-love so that I am able to just be authentically me?
Which of my creations deserves to be center stage during this moon cycle?

Here are the cards I drew for us all the consider:

Linestrider Tarot: Three of Wands rx, Seven of Pentacles rx, The High Priestess rx

In what ways can I increase my self-confidence and be courageous in my actions?-
III of Wands reversed
Have a vision for your best life. What do you want to accomplish? What are your dreams? Where do you want to go? What adventures and explorations do you want to go on? These are concepts, ideas, and questions that we forget to delve into after we set goals once and then get into the step-by-step actions of working towards them. But what about redirecting our goals? What about redefining what we want? Now is a time to step back and reassess where you are headed. Do you still want to be working towards those goals you set years ago? Are your dreams shifting and changing with the times but your actions are not changing and shifting as well to meet those new goals? Define your dreams, make a vision board, or a 5 year plan, or record a video of yourself explaining what it is you want for yourself in this life. Take action to reassess your bigger life vision.

Sometimes we just don’t know what we want. This can be hard, “What do I even want to do with my life!?” Not knowing can be severely challenging, especially since asking once and not knowing can lead to anxiety and fear of asking again. Don’t allow that fear to stop you from trying to figure this out again and don’t let fear stop you from guessing. You’ll learn in good time that you’re on the wrong path and you know what? You’ll be able to course correct, you’ll be able to change things. You don’t have to have the full plan, you don’t have to have confidence that your plan is foolproof and you will succeed, you don’t have to trust that the Universe will make this all happen for you. The only thing you need is confidence in yourself, trust in yourself, faith in yourself that you’re doing the best you can with the knowledge and feelings that you currently have access to. If you can access deeper wells of self-confidence, increase your knowledge, explore you feelings more, that is great- do that if you want! But if you’re as deep into as you can get and just stalling for time because you’re unsure of success- forget success. Redefine success to mean “just trying my hardest with the resources I currently have.” Perfect, you’re ready to go.

How can I expand my self-love so that I am able to just be authentically me?-
VII of Pentacles rx
It’s time to assess what you do have. It’s time to practice a some major gratitude. It’s time to fully acknowledge all that you have done. We still have many planets in retrograde in the sky, which is the best energy for reflecting and reassessing. What have you been up to? I’m guessing it’s not sitting around doing nothing (although, if your plan was to sit around and do nothing and you did it- well that’s a major accomplishment! Good on you for doing that self care time!). Make a list of everything that you’re done recently, either towards a specific goal, or just in general in your life. You’ll notice that you have taken some steps towards creating the life you want. Even if you’re not there yet, you’re definitely closer than before. It’s important to show that work and progress the respect it deserves.

While practicing this gratitude, you’ll be able to see yourself reflected in your actions. What type of person are you? Are you kind and generous with your resources? Are you reliable and dependable when given responsibility? Are you involved and dedicated to causes that means something to you? Are you loving and open in your relationships? Notice the ways that you show up in other people’s lives and be proud of yourself. You’re a wonderful sister, mother, aunt, best friend, etc. Extend that love into yourself. You can be someone who loves and accepts themselves. You are enough. You do enough. That’s what the VII of Pentacles wants you to look inside and see right now.

Which of my creations deserves to be center stage during this moon cycle?-
The High Priestess reversed
Your intuition wants to take center stage right now, but you’re still resisting that inner knowing. I’m not going to downplay the difficulty of getting into your calm inner center and acting from a place of intuitive knowing. We get no training in this practice, in fact, most of us are told to ignore our gut reactions and that intuition is junk and silly. You do have an intuitive gift though, we all do, and at this Leo New Moon you are being asked to bring that inner gift out and use it. It’s not going to be easy or natural, this will take a bit of effort, and probably a quiet place of stillness where you can concentrate and focus on yourself. Your greatest creation at this New Moon is an increased awareness and use of your intuition, this is the area from which you can create all that you want to manifest in this world.

If, on the other hand, you’re all intuition, all the time, I invite you to take a step back from that practice for the moon cycle and give yourself a break. Perhaps you are a tarot reader or a healer, or just a super empathic person who takes on the energy of those around you quite easier. You may need to spend some time cleansing yourself of the emotional cords and ties that are bound to you from all of that relating to others. Taking a break from an overworked intuitive power can be a challenge, especially if you are relying on it for your profession and paying the bills, but taking a break is required sometimes. We all have cycles of energy in our lives, that’s why I’m here writing about the energetic cycles of the moon! Take a look at how you’re using your intuitive gifts, go deep within and notice, then work on healing and enhancing that gift to share with others once you are rested.

There you have it! I hope you enjoyed the New Moon Reading for the coming moon cycle headed by the fiery energy of Leo. If you would like a personalized New Moon Reading, please get in touch!

Nourishing Our Wholeness with the New Moon in Cancer, July 12th, 2018

Another New Moon is upon us, and this one falls in the sign of Cancer. Cancer brings to the foreground the home, family, motherhood, security, emotions, food, the past/ancestors, and nourishing our very souls. The sign of Cancer is ruled by the Moon, so every year’s New Moon in Cancer is a powerful time to set intentions for new beginnings in these areas, but this year’s New Moon is even more potent as it also involves a partial solar eclipse. An eclipse, in traditional astrology, is a time of change and new beginnings. This heightened energy for change means that the moves we make now towards creating the amazing lives of our dreams are much more likely to have long term effects. Take some time today to reflect on the changes you would like to make to your home, your relationships, your sense of safety and support in the world. You can use these questions to ask your tarot deck for guidance:

~How can I tap into and honor my deepest needs and feelings?
~What changes or new beginnings will best support my home and family life?
~What changes or new beginnings will create security and foundation in my life?
~How can I best nourish and care for myself and those I love?
~What aspects of my past do I need to process and then let go of?
~What aspects of my past serve me well now and into the future?
~How can I set boundaries within my family so I have the space and love to grow?
~How can I be more empathetic?
~Where do I need to foster more love and connection in my life?
~What adds to my sense of safety and security in the world?

Below is a tarot reading I did for us all, offering us guidance at this New Moon time. I didn’t ask any specific question, besides that Cancer give us a message for the moon cycle ahead. I drew one card from three different decks just for fun! It’s interesting to see how meaning can be combined across types of deck:

Mary-el Tarot 6 of Disks, Animal Spirits Knowledge Cards Rabbit, Lunar Nomad Oracle #28 Man

Let me start with Rabbit from the Animal Spirits Knowledge cards, our animal spirit guide for the month ahead. Rabbit is a lunar feminine energy, with many cultures actually seeing a rabbit on the face of the Moon in the sky overhead. The Rabbit guides us through the lunar energy of Cancer season with sensitivity, intuition, empathy, and warmth. Imagine measuring life with the Moon, how would we mark the months, the seasons, time itself. Rabbit as the Moon holds great power to demarcate the cycles of our lives, creating familiarity and patterns in a chaotic world. Many may not notice consciously the cycles of the moon, but the Moon revels in the subconscious anyway. She is a part of us, a constant, a pattern buried deep within us of light and dark even throughout the night. The Rabbit reminds us in the month ahead to appreciate cycles, take comfort in constants, celebrate our shadows, and own the personal power we hold deep inside.

The 6 of Disks in the Mary-el Tarot shows the angel Gabriel in both masculine and feminine form, representing the duality and non-binary aspect of the divine. This divinity is within us all. We each hold the outward, masculine, doing energy as well as the inward, feminine, being energy. Gabriel is the “Strength of God”, she is the messenger who tells us all that we can manifest whatever it is we came here to do. We have that power. We are each on an individual mission, a plan, a life with a purpose and we were born with everything we need to manifest that meaning. Yes, you were born with divine gifts, you are one with your higher self, you are a holistic being. Still the manifestation of your gifts requires your effort, your commitment, your blood, sweat, and tears. Never fear that it isn’t worth it, that it isn’t working, that you will fail. Do not doubt. Put in the work and earn your rewards. You are wholly capable and deserving.

The Man from the Lunar Nomad Oracle card strikes me in it’s imagery so reminiscent of the traditional Strength card of the Rider Waite Smith tarot deck. On Strength we see a woman with a lion, whereas on this oracle card we see a man and a lion. Generally, Strength is thought of as a feminine energy with it’s counterpart, The Chariot, representing masculine energy. Once again, as with the 6 of Disks, with The Man we are confronted by the duality within each of us, our ability to hold simultaneously both masculine and feminine energy. Subduing the lion, harnessing and pacifying that energy is a beautiful and courageous thing to do. At other times we need to provoke the lion within us, take action, be brave and daring. This melds perfectly with the 6 of Disk’s message to internally believe we are strong and capable and to USE that belief by acting out our passions and intentions. The Man gives us the impetus, the will to go for it!

There is so much we can manifest in this life. There is so much we are capable of doing. The key is to believe deeply in ourselves. We need to believe in our personal power, our ability to do great things, our meaning and purpose in this lifetime. We also need to take risks, to act, to work hard at what we want to be, create, and do. These are not two sides of the same coin, they are simply us, our wholeness. We don’t have to be this and then that, we can be everything all at once. That is connecting to the higher self, the divinity within us that doesn’t take sides, doesn’t differentiate, but simply allows it all to be present right now. Be fully present in the now at this New Moon in Cancer!

There you have it, another beautiful New Moon reading for you all. I hope you enjoyed it! If you would like a personalized New Moon reading, please get in touch. I’m available for email readings and in-person readings in the Nashville, TN area.

 

Tarot Blog Hop: The Knight of Cups Sings His Heart Out

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Welcome to the Summer Solstice edition of the Tarot Blog Hop! I hope you are enjoying the longest day of the year if you too find yourself in the Northern Hemisphere. I love me some long summer nights, even though it actually doesn’t stay light out that late where I live in Tennessee since we’re right on the edge of Central Time. It’s all good! Someday I’d love to spend the Summer Solstice in Alaska or northern Norway to see the sun stay up, up, up above the horizon for days at a time. #goals!

To me, “The Things I Regret” is so the theme song for the Knight of Cups. First off, it has a jaunty beat that reminds me of the pace at which the Knight of Cups would ride his horse. It’s not too fast, not to slow, but constantly moving. It feels like a spirited trot, constantly seeking, constantly exploring, constantly idealizing. You can feel the movement and action and determination of the Knight energy in the music and in the voice of Brandi Carlile as she sings in her ever so earnest way.

Then come the lyrics which are all about love, longing, open-heartedness, romantic ideals dashed, heartbreak, and soul searching. The lyrics speak to me of the push and pull of the emotional landscape of the Knight of Cups. Love is the key to the deepest happiness but it is also the easiest way to fall into the blackest of despair. Love is destined, it is out of our hands, but it is also all our fault when it unravels. Love will set you free but it will also keep you trapped in an endless loop of doubts and regrets. Love is the only thing worth living for but it makes love unspeakable hard.

Here are the lyrics for you to read through so you can see what I’m talking about:

Knight of Cups
Rider Waite Smith deck

There’s a hole in my pocket where my dreams fell through,
From a sidewalk in the city to the avenue
There’s a leak in my dam ‘bout the size of a pin,
And I can’t quite remember where the water’s getting in

But when you’re wearing on your sleeve,
All the things you regret,
You can only remember what you want to forget
You feel it tugging at your heart,
Like the stars overhead,
‘Til you rest your bones on the killing bed

Let them roll over me.
Let them roll over me,
When I doubt you
Let them roll over me.
Let them roll over me,
When I doubt you

Knight of Cups
Shadowscapes Tarot

With the weight of the world resting on my back,
And the road on which I’ve traveled is as long as it is cracked
But I keep pressing forward with my feet to the ground,
For a heart that is broken makes a beautiful sound

But when you’re wearing on your sleeve,
All the things you regret,
You can only remember what you want to forget

Let them roll over me
Let them roll over me,
When I doubt you.
Let them roll over me
Let them roll over me,
When I doubt you

Knight of Cups
Linestrider Tarot

I walk through my days like a ghost in a dream,
But the field carries on and my past follows me
It’s hard moving on from the things you done wrong,
When they play in your head like an old fashioned song

But when you’re wearing on your sleeve,
All the things you regret,
You can only remember what you want to forget

Lonely miles,
Without you

Lonely miles,
Without youLet the ground keep my bones
Let the water be my home
Let the dust hold my soul,
                                                              Like a holy rolling stone

You’ll notice there are quite a few references to water in this song, which reminds me of the suit of Cups representing the Water element. The water is his home and his emotions are a leaky dam. There is so much emotion and water in here, and it isn’t the kind of mature, self-assured emotions you would expect from a Queen of a King. It also isn’t that fresh and trusting emotional naiveté of a Page. Here we are somewhere in the middle of learning about love and feelings and getting our hearts trampled but also not being the best of partners. We all can relate to these growing pains, hopefully learning from our mistakes and responding differently next time we experience challenges.

There is hope in the Knight of Cups. He will “keep pressing forward with my feet to the ground” even though it’s lonely and miserable, disorienting and seemingly endless work. That’s life! That’s love! There’s not much we can do about it but keep trying. Through it all is a sense of the deep beauty of love, “for a heart that is broken, makes a beautiful sound.” That is just the kind of romantic language that the Knight of Cups would spout out to a friend over a few drinks at the bar. That friend is probably a songwriter who will turn that heartache into something as beautiful as this song.

Okay, that’s enough of my song analysis 🙂 I hope you are enjoying the Tarot Blog Hop and hop along to the next post, or go backwards, it’s all in the fun of the thing!  Happy Summer Solstice!!

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