A Personal Reading for the New Year 2019

Happy New Year! Each year I love to sit down and enjoy some “me time” by delving into the energy of my year ahead using the insight and guidance of the tarot. I use the spread that I offer to everyone on my email tarot readings page so you can get an idea of what my reading style is and if you would like a similar reading for yourself. I’ll be offering this reading until January 13th, so you can order one any time up until then 🙂

I wish each of us the positivity and perseverance to make 2019 an incredibly satisfying and enjoyable year for ourselves, and for each other. 

Now, here’s my reading for me!

The Wild Unknown Tarot Deck

1. A 2019 overall theme card: V of Cups reversed
2. A positive influence to guide me: II of Swords reversed
3. An energy that will challenge my growth: The High Priestess reversed
4. A message to promote abundance, gratitude, and healing: VI of Swords 
5. Relationship/love influence ahead: The Empress reversed
6. Career/work energy ahead: IV of Pentacles reversed
7. Wellbeing/spiritual calling coming: II of Cups

Let the reading begin! The first thing I noticed about these cards is that I drew mostly reversals. This is a call to go inside and process a major change in my outer world with a corresponding transition of my internal world. 2018 was an incredibly challenging year for me, perhaps more so than any year of my life. I suffered a major loss that caused me to swing between denial and depression for the last six months. Change in life situations can be difficult to impossible when a corresponding inner transition does not accompany the outward changes of circumstances. I’m ready to accept my loss and start healing.

The V of Cups reversed as the theme card of my year ushers in a year of acceptance, healing, and moving on. I’m at a turning point, as every 5 card indicates. I’m still in the struggle, but the reversal shows me that I am making progress, I am ready to move on and acceptance that the past cannot be changed. I am determined to release and let go, but also uncertain of what the future holds. I feel like I’m in an in between place, processing an ending before starting a developmental journey that will be the beginning of a new chapter of my life. The V of Cups reversed reminds me to be gentle and quiet, especially when it comes to my emotions which can be volatile and erratic. Dealing with disappointment, regret, and loss requires substantial time and patience and I want to give those to myself this coming year.

The acceptance that I feel gives me hope for the next chapter of my life. I intend to be more self-aware, more empathetic, stronger, wiser, self-validating, self-possessed and more creative. I have a lot of exploration, reflection, and redesign work to do in my head, heart, and very spirit. Hopefully, the outcome of that internal work will be a more evolved version of myself, built upon the new knowledge I gained during this transition period. The V of Cups reversed gives me encouragement that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, that painful, messy growth is sometimes the best option available, and that I will be okay.

The II of Swords reversed is a positive influence to guide me in the year ahead. Honestly, this feels more like a warning that a warm hug. I am confused and disoriented about what comes next in my life, and have a tendency to take in a lot of information and advice in order to choose my best path. Perhaps the II of Swords reversed is patting me on the back for getting off of social media for a while. I decided to put Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter out of my life for the foreseeable future. My brain is overwhelmed with new information from all angles, which just isn’t helpful. I want to make decisions about my future that are based on my values and what’s best for me. Being in touch with that inner knowing can be difficult when I bombard myself with all kinds of messages about how to life my best life. Even positive, life-affirming messages can be too much for a soul in full-on growth phase. I need to keep it simple and quiet.

The II of Swords also shows the positive influence of taking a break from trying to integrate two opposing points of view. Being in disagreement and conflict for the last half of the year has left me frazzled and weary of continuing to state my opinions, philosophies, and beliefs without any change or compromise. The space between viewpoints feels like the blackhole depicted in the II of Swords above. Instead of a vibrant and alive space, it feels dull and dead. Taking a break from that conflict, just focusing on myself, and being quiet sounds fantastic at the moment. This space to myself is a positive influence in 2019.

The High Priestess reversed as the energy that will challenge my growth really supports this idea of quiet and calm. This card represents the subconscious and the use of intuition. Being a tarot reader, you won’t be surprised that I highly value the use of intuition in decision making and planning out life path steps. It may surprise you to learn that I don’t feel like I have been connected to my intuition. The denial that I wrote of earlier is part of that. I had created an identity for myself based upon my life situation instead of upon my eternal self or “me-ness”. When the reality of my life situation changed, I didn’t know who I was anymore, which is an unhealthy way to live. Denying the need for internal transition and creation of a self-validated identity blocked my intuition last year. It would burst out in fits and tantrums (literally!) but then I would shove it away again. “It’s time to change, Deird. You have to let go. Your reality has changed and you can’t stay the same.” But I wouldn’t listen.

My challenge in the year ahead is to start listening to my intuition again. The II of Swords reversed shows me stuck in a situation in which I can’t figure out which path forward will have the least negative consequences for me. The High Priestess reversed calls me to trust and have faith that I’ll pick the right path for me if I just quiet down and listen. One of the challenges that comes with this is that this quiet time is very self-focused after a period of intense interest and dependence on other people’s emotions and needs. It is extremely hard for me to put my needs first and breaking from this pattern requires intense effort on my part. Learning to acknowledge my own wants and need, self-validate, and hold onto myself in the face of other’s demands is my current challenge. Meeting that challenge will allow amazing growth for me.

The hard messages of the last two cards are softened by the healing energy of the VI of Swords. Finally an upright card! and this one shows the shift towards a new mindset and perspective on life. It may be difficult, dark, and unwanted but it is definitely happening, no if, ands, or buts about it.  I must remember, though, that relief is not withheld from me now or in the future. This transition holds healing, it is a rite of passage, it is a movement from one stage of life to the next. The movement is subtle and sometimes excruciatingly slow, but there is a shifting and I will arrive on a distant shore a healthy and more whole version of myself. There is no reason to look back with regret or imagine that the past wasn’t “real.” The past was what I was capable of as the person I was at the time. Now I am transforming and will be capable of more.

The VI of Swords often indicates travel and that is something that I think would be very healing for me. I am not in a place financially where I can afford travel, but making plans and saving up are the only things currently on my agenda for the year. I always love to travel, it allows me to stay present in the moment much more easily than in my day-to-day life. Being in the present is a wonderful place to be. It is the time when everything is happening. I’m grateful for all the opportunities that I’ve had to travel in the past and hopeful and excited about future possibilities for travel. I also recognize that I am traveling at this moment, just not physically, all the movement is within me, happening at a glacial and elegant pace.

The VI of Swords indicates a low mood, the blues, and depression. The thing for me to remember is that this is normal and that pruning back, healing, regeneration, and new growth can all happen here. It certainly doesn’t feel good to be depressed but it is a necessary part of the transition process. Everyone has their winter, when everything dies and the world gets cold. At this darkest time, we can still remember the warmth of the summer and hold hope for the spring. Taking things one day at a time, noting what progress I do make, and being gentle and patient with myself are all recommended.

I drew The Empress reversed for my love/relationship energy going into 2019. Perhaps it hasn’t been abundantly obvious if you don’t know me, but this loss that I’m dealing with is one of love and relationship. The Empress reversed also indicates a need for some alone time to believe in myself again, to get in touch with my own needs and wants in life, outside of my relationship. I’ve been neglecting my own power, my own place, my own life path. I’m uncertain about what the future of my relationship is, besides knowing that what is was is over and what comes next is unknown- something or nothing that is left to be seen.

The Empress reversed reminds me that I need to be careful not to place myself in a situation where I’m waiting to see what happens, though. This isn’t about my relationship anymore, whatever it was is over, and whatever it is going to be is uncertain. In that uncertainty I need to work on my own emotional issues and mental problems and spiritual calling. This is independent and personal work that I’m doing, not to try and patch things up or pass the time waiting, but rather now is my time. It’s all about my relationship with myself. I want to believe in myself again. I want to trust myself. I want to validate myself. I want to live my values. I want to get ahold of myself and feel together internally again.

The Empress reversed is also an indicator for depressed mood and negativity, this time in the area of love. What can I say- I’m a bag of laughs these days!  Okay, see I still do have a sense of humor, but I’m also okay with being sad. I’m not going to fight it. I’m not going to pretend everything is fine. I’m not going to pretend I’m enjoying this. I’m not going to try and avoid, ignore, or speed up this winter mood. Sometimes I laugh because I say I love personal development and growth, but then when I’m presented with it so obviously and immensely, I’m all, “No thanks! This sucks!” It doesn’t help to remind myself that I will look back on this time as hugely meaningful and important, but I do still know that that is true. 

The presence of The High Priestess reversed and The Empress reversed indicates a need to connect more positively with my feminine energy. I have been passive to the point of being disconnected from my abundant creativity and personal life energy. This doesn’t mean I have to push myself to do, do, do and create. Rather it’s time to nurture and love myself quietly and calmly. Building myself back up may take a while as I reconnect to my calm inner center, my ability to manifest magic, my inner beauty and my inspiration to create. This is a gentle process with no need for the pressure to suddenly be restored and in the full swing of creation. Life is a complex interconnected system, not a machine that can be quickly fixed with new parts. A solid foundation of self love, self esteem, and self possession can flow out into all areas once it is firmly established. That is something I really need to work on this year with The Empress and The High Priestess as my guides.

For the work and career energy of my 2019 I drew the IV of Pentacles reversed. This points out a relative lack of interest in career stability in my life at the moment. Going through so much turmoil in my relationship department has really pulled my focus away from the material world of finances and work. Of course, I still need money to live my life and I’ve been mostly focused on not spending too much so that I can feel secure that I’m not living outside of my means. This could be a great time figure out what my needs actually are and step outside of my usual comfort zone of work to try and meet those needs. It doesn’t look like 2019 is shaping up to be a financially successful year, but knowing that that energy is lacking in my life right now could be just the kick in the pants I need to start turning things around for myself.

Lastly, I drew the II of Cups for the energy of wellbeing and spirituality that 2019 brings with it. I love, love, love seeing this card as the last one in the reading. It evokes a sense of self love and living in alignment with my values that I really need right now. When a person truly loves themselves, validates themselves, and can stand on her own two feet, that is when she is most capable of forming meaningful and lasting relationship with another person. I aim to see myself positivity, honor and respect myself, treat myself how I want to be treated by others, so to say. The II of Cups comforts me that I am following my spiritual calling and doing what is best for my wellbeing at this time. I’ve felt out of alignment with the Universe, like the Universe is playing cruel and unusual tricks on me. I know that that is not how the Universe works, I just can’t see the patterns, the master plan, all of destiny laid out before me- and I never will! But I will see pieces, and I will be consoled, and certain things that I need to know now will come to light in their own time and way.

As far as physical wellbeing, the II of Cups suggest balance and moderation in all things. When we take care of our emotional needs, we often end up simultaneously addressing the physical ailments of the body. When we work and relax in equal measure, it can quiet the mind and the body. When we spend as much time exploring and uncovering our inner world as we do creating in the outer world, we derive more peace and joy in life. This year I need to remember to harmonize the duality within me between the internal feminine and the external masculine energies. This is wonderful advice for anyone but especially those who have been doing far too much and are getting increasingly overwhelmed by the demands of the modern world and society. Maybe you too want to take a break from social media for a while?  😉

Okay, I am going to leave it on that positive note. This reading was uncomfortably personal for me and I may only leave it up for the short time that this reading spread is available to order on the email readings page. This is a great example of how a tarot reading can bring up present uncomfortable truths, things we don’t want to face but when we do, we grow exponentially. Are you ready to discover the transformative power of tarot?

Happy New Year 2019!!

New Year Tarot Spread 2015

It’s almost 2015!  Whoot!  Now is that special time of year when we sit back to reflect on all that we accomplished in 2014 and all the big goals and dreams we have for the coming year.  Writing these goals and intentions down can be a powerful way to structure and plan out your next steps, as well as something to look back on and see how far you have come. A tarot reading can work much the same way! I’ve created a special tarot spread to address multiple aspects of your life, helping you to uncover blocks and empower yourself to make 2015 a magnificent year.  Here are the different positions of the spread:

  1. Happy-New-Year-from-fireworks-imageBiggest lesson/advice/importance from 2014
  2. Love advice this coming year
  3. Career advice this coming year
  4. Health advice this coming year
  5. Biggest obstacle for 2015
  6. What will empower you moving forward
  7. Overall theme, advice, direction for 2015

 

You can also click over to the readings page to order any of my offered readings today, and why not order one for a friend as well 🙂  This New Year’s Reading was only available during January of 2015, but my Holistic Spread is much of the same character!  If you would like to see the cards in action, find below an example reading that I did for myself using this spread. Powerful stuff I will be contemplating and acting on all year!

King Swords reversed Shadowscapes Tarot

King Swords reversed
Shadowscapes Tarot

Lesson of 2014: King of Swords reversed
The King of Swords is an authority on truth and rationality, things that can be lacking from one’s life when in the reversed position. In 2014 I lacked decisiveness about the opportunities before me and what direction I should take. It was a year of growth when I was still making up my mind about what exactly I wanted to do and what it is that inspires me. I struggled with mental clarity and using my intelligence to make critical decisions. Quitting my librarian job, moving into a van, and traveling full time were big moves. I leaned more towards using my intuition and listening to my inner voice to decide which direction to follow, especially using the tarot and starting this business. The struggle between the rational and the intuitive, and creating harmony between the two, were big lessons for me in 2014.I didn’t have a clear idea of what I was doing during much of 2014, or what I hoped to achieve and why.  I wasn’t able to make clear, long term decisions because I wasn’t sure how the plan to be on the road was going to pan out. I spent a lot of time last year not being the King of Swords, which allowed me to be in sometimes murky and confusing situations but able to adapt and keep going. Sometimes in life we take on new challenges that don’t allow us to be authority figures, intelligent leaders, or quickly decisive. Last year I learned how to be in that kind of situation and accept my capabilities.

The Emperor Shadowscapes Tarot

The Emperor
Shadowscapes Tarot

Love advice for 2015: The Emperor
The Emperor represents a stable love life for the coming year. This is warm and welcome news! I am already in a well established relationship as my girlfriend, Kristen, and I have been dating for three years.  We have created a secure relationship structure and a firm foundation for our love.  This coming year I should focus on appreciating the fact that the relationship is stable, practical, and committed. Sometimes things are steady and strong between two people and relationship growth isn’t necessary or needed.  We can just be as we are and feel good about it. The Emperor points out that there is a lot of power in this relationship as well. If we work together we can be an authoritative couple, we rule over our little empire with a responsible eye and accountable hearts. The Emperor also represents success, so I would interpret this to mean that the structure and rules of our relationship will lead us to be happy and healthy together, to succeed in making each other happy and creating a life together. My relationship advice is to be committed and secure.

High Priestess reversed Shadowscapes Tarot

High Priestess reversed
Shadowscapes Tarot

Work advice: The High Priestess reversed
As a tarot reader, I identify strongly with the archetype of The High Priestess. She represents the portal between the conscious and the mysterious unknown.  She is awareness and connection to the mysteries of the universe. Since this card is reversed, I interpret that as a need to focus on developing my inner High Priestess. Things I can do to access her knowledge include: meditate, listening to my inner voice, and studying spirituality. I am still a developing tarot reader, although the essence and drive is there, I do need to be devoted to growth in my knowledge and business. I need to find my calm centre and learn how to live there. This is important work. I must take time for ME, away from distraction, to reflect, study, listen and grow. Inner knowing is the goal.  I must dedicate myself to the task of studying tarot and growing my business is the advice from The High Priestess reversed.  Her’s are the lessons of a lifetime, and cannot be rushed or immediately understood.  I’m looking forward to continuing my spiritual development which will help me grow my business.

Page of Wands reversed Shadowscapes Tarot

Page of Wands reversed
Shadowscapes Tarot

Health advice for 2015: Page of Wands reversed
I’m always struggling with making healthy choices in my life. I like to eat too much, sit around on my ass, and drink a lot of IPAs. This lack of energy and direction toward my heath and well-being, creates a lack of enthusiasm or optimism for starting a new regime or improving my health. Basically, I need new direction, and the Page of Wands reversed here is saying that it’s not going to be easy to find. I’m actually not even sure what I want to achieve with my health: get strong? lose weight? drink less? get over societal norms of healthy body image? I feel like there are too many obstacles, too many balls in the air, too much going on in other areas of my life to give this the time and energy it deserves. Basically, I’m feeling pessimistic. So, I see this card as a warning that I need to decide what healthy means to me and try a new approach to getting there. I’m lacking fire and drive regarding my health, and aren’t quite ready for a new start. I need to look for something that inspires me, something that I’m passionate about, something creative and new to drive my health goals in 2015.

The Sun Shadowscapes Tarot

The Sun
Shadowscapes Tarot

Biggest obstacle for 2015: The Sun reversed
My biggest obstacle will be finding happiness and joy in something other than what I expected. I’m setting goals for myself this year and I need to be open to the fact that I will probably achieve something quite different than what I’m setting out to achieve.  The Sun reversed reminds me that no matter what I end up achieving, I will be doing exactly what it is I’m meant to do. That can be hard to face, because I want to accomplish my goals and I’m looking forward to success. Setbacks are going to make me feel sad, staying positive may take more effort than usual, the road will not be easy, and making progress will be tough. I may struggle with losing motivation and enthusiasm. This collaborates with the Page of Wands reversed, in that I’m lack a healthy dose of fire energy that drives inspiration and new creativity. I must remind myself that as long as the journey is made with love, no matter the outcome, I shall be happy. The Sun will illuminate and enlighten, but not if I met with resistance.

Page of Swords Shadowscapes Tarot

Page of Swords
Shadowscapes Tarot

What will empower me in 2015: Page of Swords
What will empower me in 2015 is the general Page energy of passion and enthusiasm for new things, in the case of the Swords this enthusiasm comes from the realm of the mind. If last year I learned that I am not the King of Swords, this year I can be empowered by being the Page of Swords: starting out, being fresh, finding wisdom from my elders, being bold, enthusiastic, and focused. I must remember that I am young, idealistic, strong, powerful and new. I can go after my dreams and keep going. Kristen also has this energy and I can take encouragement from her. As she too is a on a difficult journey, we can support each other. I need to ask questions, be a student, be at my current level, and be ready to learn. I am an excellent communicator and should write and speak more with the new people I meet, meaning I need to NETWORK.  The air energy of making plans, using my mind, being intelligent and rational will get my farther than relying on my small supply of fire energy that is lacking with The Sun reversed and The Page of Wands reversed.  Basically, I need to tell myself what to do instead of waiting for a divine spark of inspiration.  I already have great ideas, I need good plans to get those ideas into motion and a rational mind to stick with them.

IV of Pents reversed Shadowscapes Tarot

IV of Pentacles reversed Shadowscapes Tarot

Theme for 2015: Four of Pentacles reversed
My theme of 2015 is letting go of material possessions, stepping outside of social norms of security, and rejecting materialism. This is very apt, as I continue to live in a van, with my girlfriend, and make my living doing tarot card readings- three major aspects of my life that are outside of the social norm. Yet I still feel secure and stable, without clinging to meaningless aspects of the physical world like money and a home. The point of life is not to obtain material possessions but rather to connect with the immaterial, the magic of the world that allows all of creation to exist and be accessible to us. I can set my own rules, define home for myself and financial security my own way. This card can also indicate generosity, and a freedom from greed or materialism. I want to be in the mindset that I will get everything I need, and therefore do not have to cling tightly to every penny and be miserably in a lack mentality. Sure, I will not be able to afford hotel rooms or fancy meals, but if I really need those things, I will find a way to afford them easily. This isn’t easy advice for me for 2015 and I will need to work hard to step outside of my comfort zone, especially financially. This card offers me the advice to get outside of the physical world, as the High Priestess also recommended, through meditation, study of spirituality, and personal growth.

In summary:  Whoa, there is a lot of powerful energy here, and a lot of it crops up around the theme of resistance and setbacks.  The reversed High Priestess, reversed Page of Wands, and The Sun reversed cards all speak to challenges, and difficult lessons to learn in the coming year. I may be lacking in that fire energy that animates and inspires me, so will need to learn to function well without enough of that element.  I need to think about how I can let go, what will help me accept and go with the flow. I have so many plans and creatives projects stored away in my brain from this last year, that hopefully fanning those sparks with a healthy dose of Air using the Page of Swords will set me on the right path.

The big lesson of 2014 in the King of Swords should help me with going with the flow, as I’ve already given up a position of authority and expertise when I quit my job and became a full time tarot reader. That experience that has taught me how to be out of my zone of expertise and off in turbulent waters. The High Priestess is adept at living in the murky places and figuring out what her inner voice and intuition can lend to the matter. Meditation and further tarot study should help me learn how to navigate those difficult waters.

Speaking of water, there are no Cups in this reading.  This may indicate that I’m feeling secure in my heart and love life, as indicated by the Emperor in this reading.  It may also mean that strong emotions and approaching life from my heart space will not be of much assistance to me this year.  The Page of Swords is saying that what will really help me out is to use my mind, be logical and rational, and think things through. The inner developments I want to go about in my tarot learning and business journey should not be over emotional, but rather well thought out and planned with the sense of new beginning and exploration.  It is always important to remember that all elements are necessary to create and sustain a healthy life, so I must not shy away from my heart space and look for the love in my life every day!

Overall, I can’t expect to gain financial security, or be overly attached to material possessions as the IV of Pentacles reversed shows that 2015 will be another year of living outside of social norms and finding the beautiful lessons that come from thinking outside of the narrow box of what is normal. Outside of normal is actually where I’m most comfortable, so at least I know I will continue to resist expectations from the outside world. I’m really looking forward to the coming year and all of the challenges and gifts that 2015 will bring with it.  I hope you enjoyed this reading and please get in touch if you would like a New Years reading of your very own!!  Email me at: thewillowpathtarot@gmail.com