Nourishing Our Wholeness with the New Moon in Cancer, July 12th, 2018

Another New Moon is upon us, and this one falls in the sign of Cancer. Cancer brings to the foreground the home, family, motherhood, security, emotions, food, the past/ancestors, and nourishing our very souls. The sign of Cancer is ruled by the Moon, so every year’s New Moon in Cancer is a powerful time to set intentions for new beginnings in these areas, but this year’s New Moon is even more potent as it also involves a partial solar eclipse. An eclipse, in traditional astrology, is a time of change and new beginnings. This heightened energy for change means that the moves we make now towards creating the amazing lives of our dreams are much more likely to have long term effects. Take some time today to reflect on the changes you would like to make to your home, your relationships, your sense of safety and support in the world. You can use these questions to ask your tarot deck for guidance:

~How can I tap into and honor my deepest needs and feelings?
~What changes or new beginnings will best support my home and family life?
~What changes or new beginnings will create security and foundation in my life?
~How can I best nourish and care for myself and those I love?
~What aspects of my past do I need to process and then let go of?
~What aspects of my past serve me well now and into the future?
~How can I set boundaries within my family so I have the space and love to grow?
~How can I be more empathetic?
~Where do I need to foster more love and connection in my life?
~What adds to my sense of safety and security in the world?

Below is a tarot reading I did for us all, offering us guidance at this New Moon time. I didn’t ask any specific question, besides that Cancer give us a message for the moon cycle ahead. I drew one card from three different decks just for fun! It’s interesting to see how meaning can be combined across types of deck:

Mary-el Tarot 6 of Disks, Animal Spirits Knowledge Cards Rabbit, Lunar Nomad Oracle #28 Man

Let me start with Rabbit from the Animal Spirits Knowledge cards, our animal spirit guide for the month ahead. Rabbit is a lunar feminine energy, with many cultures actually seeing a rabbit on the face of the Moon in the sky overhead. The Rabbit guides us through the lunar energy of Cancer season with sensitivity, intuition, empathy, and warmth. Imagine measuring life with the Moon, how would we mark the months, the seasons, time itself. Rabbit as the Moon holds great power to demarcate the cycles of our lives, creating familiarity and patterns in a chaotic world. Many may not notice consciously the cycles of the moon, but the Moon revels in the subconscious anyway. She is a part of us, a constant, a pattern buried deep within us of light and dark even throughout the night. The Rabbit reminds us in the month ahead to appreciate cycles, take comfort in constants, celebrate our shadows, and own the personal power we hold deep inside.

The 6 of Disks in the Mary-el Tarot shows the angel Gabriel in both masculine and feminine form, representing the duality and non-binary aspect of the divine. This divinity is within us all. We each hold the outward, masculine, doing energy as well as the inward, feminine, being energy. Gabriel is the “Strength of God”, she is the messenger who tells us all that we can manifest whatever it is we came here to do. We have that power. We are each on an individual mission, a plan, a life with a purpose and we were born with everything we need to manifest that meaning. Yes, you were born with divine gifts, you are one with your higher self, you are a holistic being. Still the manifestation of your gifts requires your effort, your commitment, your blood, sweat, and tears. Never fear that it isn’t worth it, that it isn’t working, that you will fail. Do not doubt. Put in the work and earn your rewards. You are wholly capable and deserving.

The Man from the Lunar Nomad Oracle card strikes me in it’s imagery so reminiscent of the traditional Strength card of the Rider Waite Smith tarot deck. On Strength we see a woman with a lion, whereas on this oracle card we see a man and a lion. Generally, Strength is thought of as a feminine energy with it’s counterpart, The Chariot, representing masculine energy. Once again, as with the 6 of Disks, with The Man we are confronted by the duality within each of us, our ability to hold simultaneously both masculine and feminine energy. Subduing the lion, harnessing and pacifying that energy is a beautiful and courageous thing to do. At other times we need to provoke the lion within us, take action, be brave and daring. This melds perfectly with the 6 of Disk’s message to internally believe we are strong and capable and to USE that belief by acting out our passions and intentions. The Man gives us the impetus, the will to go for it!

There is so much we can manifest in this life. There is so much we are capable of doing. The key is to believe deeply in ourselves. We need to believe in our personal power, our ability to do great things, our meaning and purpose in this lifetime. We also need to take risks, to act, to work hard at what we want to be, create, and do. These are not two sides of the same coin, they are simply us, our wholeness. We don’t have to be this and then that, we can be everything all at once. That is connecting to the higher self, the divinity within us that doesn’t take sides, doesn’t differentiate, but simply allows it all to be present right now. Be fully present in the now at this New Moon in Cancer!

There you have it, another beautiful New Moon reading for you all. I hope you enjoyed it! If you would like a personalized New Moon reading, please get in touch. I’m available for email readings and in-person readings in the Nashville, TN area.

 

Learning and Integrating with the New Moon in Gemini, June 13, 2018

Happy New Moon in Gemini! As we start off another cycle with the Moon, this time we are given the airy, communicative energy of Gemini to guide us through the next four weeks. Gemini rules over the realm of the mind, so this month I thought I would help us connect our mind to our intuitive side by using the Mary-el Tarot deck for our moon reading. Whoa, this deck always blows me away with its depth. It takes me to another realm of the subconscious and intuitive realm more than any other tarot deck that I use. For this reason, I have refrained from doing readings for other people with this deck. I rely heavily upon the book that Marie White includes with her deck and love delving into the esoteric ideas that she communicates therein. Gemini energy loves to communicate lessons so this month I’m exploring what we can learn and how we can use those lessons in the coming month ahead. Enjoy!

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What lessons can I learn during the Gemini moon cycle?- Queen of Wands
This Queen is a master of her internal fire energy. She carries a light that shines brightly in all the darkest corners of her inner world. This light illuminates that which wants to remain hidden- the true self. It can be scary and difficult to face our true self. We want to hide, we want to show up as society would have us be, we want to be “normal.” Yet, each of us is unique and incredible, fierce and bright, strong and capable. The Queen of Wands asks you to learn the lesson of self-confidence, of self-reliance, and of self-love. She wants you to hold up a mirror and look at your true self and see yourself as a gift, as perfect, as the miracle that you are incarnate. She fills this act with warmth and kindness, using her inner fire to make you feel secure and safe revealing yourself. At this Gemini New Moon, you can learn about the potential that you hold within you. You can learn to be self-assured and luminous like the Queen of Wands.

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How can I integrate this lesson into my experience?- The Moon
There is something mysterious and unknowable about this process of self-realization and self-actualization. Where does your “yourness” reside? What makes you “you”? Why can’t you transform into someone else? Your only option is to come more fully into yourself, to be more authentic, to be more confident, to be more you. The Moon asks you to use your intuition and explore the area of your subconscious in order to access your inner Queen of Wands. The Moon is your secret place, your inner realm, your hidden side that you want to keep away from the world. It’s your dark side of the moon, never brought into the light. What purpose does all the secrecy serve? This Gemini moon cycle asks you to reveal yourself, to go within, shine a light, and emerge from that darkest of places in order to show up in this lifetime. You cannot show up for your life and really experience it when you are expending so much energy hiding your true self. Use the light of the Moon, the energy of the Moon, the intuition of the moon, to allow yourself to become more fuller yourself during this cycle.

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What secret does Gemini have to share with me now?- 8 of Discs
In this card we see an image of the binary world, of two sides coming together, of the Twins of Gemini standing together but never touching. In the space between these two pillars of energy there is an innocent and pure lamb. This lamb represents you. It represents your ability to be more than one thing, to have more than one side, to be multi-faceted, and exist in the space between. The space between is balance, it is truth, and it is honest. This space is also light and airy, just like Gemini. It isn’t heavy or dark, but free and transformational. You can exist in a lighter and freer space when you give up the cultural mandate to pick sides, to see things in black and white, or to choose either/or. What if you chose both? This Gemini New Moon is an opportunity to explore the riddle of what exists outside of opposites, or what happens when you don’t take sides, and how you can choose more than one option if you use your creativity.

I hope you enjoyed this tarot reading for the New Moon in Gemini. I hope it generates a desire to do some deep thinking. Gemini energy is great for thinking! Use all those brilliant thoughts to explore something totally irrational, like intuition. This world we live in is not as black and white and binary as we have come to accept. Accept nothing! Question everything! That will make for an interesting month ahead with the powerful insight and creativity of Gemini on your side.

Deep Dives into the Scorpio New Moon, November 18, 2017

The New Moon is the best time of the month to get in touch with the astrological energy supporting intention setting for your next four weeks. This New Moon in Scorpio encourages you to dive deep into your subconscious, your watery emotional realm, your most heartfelt desires and focus on self development and personal mastery. This is a wonderful time to confront your addictions or other bad habits and make positive changes towards the life you want. Scorpio asks you to question and examine what is motivating your excesses and bad behaviors. What is missing from your life? What do you need to let go of? How can you facilitate this transformation? This is the process of death and rebirth that is so strongly connected with the energy of Scorpio. Do not be afraid to really get to the bottom of things and do some soul searching. It’s worth diving into your shadow in order to move forward into the light as a fuller version of yourself.

Below are three questions for you to ask the tarot at this Scorpio New Moon. I used the Mary-el Tarot to do an example reading for myself, and perhaps it will help you access your subconscious at this time as well. The Mary-el Tarot is beautiful and strange, and doesn’t read for me like other decks. I rely heavily upon the book of interpretations that Marie White includes with her deck in my reading here:

Mary El Tarot: IX of Wands, Page of Wands, X of Swords

What is unseen that needs to come to the surface?- IX of Wands
Creative Fire energy and the Free Will to create whatever my destiny prescribes are represented here by the lion and the woman in the card image, respectively. The lion is wild, untamed, passionate, creative, transformative, and intense. It is me without the armor of my personality and societal influences which keep me humble and in check. This fire lies beneath the surface of my conscious self that I present to the world. I can use my free will to access this fire and use it to create my future, though. I am limitless and unrestrained as long as I acknowledge that I am not a victim of circumstance. I can be whatever I want to be. Just because I don’t have something, doesn’t mean I can’t get it. Just because I have never done something, doesn’t mean I can’t do it now. I learn through my trials and errors and can continuously reinvent and reimagine who and what I am. Now, with the help of the Scorpio New Moon, I can dig deep to get in touch with my creative side, my inner fire, and bring my wild side into the light. There is no reason to be restrained and under control when we can each burn as bright as the sun, brilliant and genius in our life creations.

What emotional burdens, old habits or beliefs do I need to let die, let go of, clear away?- Page of Wands
It is time for me to accept that I have faith and strong beliefs and move onto using those strengths. I have a tendency towards nihilism, a willingness to feel that life has no meaning. This is reactionary behavior though, as it isn’t that I truly believe that life has no purpose, but rather that that purpose in unknowable. Faced with the idea that I may never consciously understand the purpose of my life, I reject meaning all together. Deep down I do believe and have a strong faith that my life, and life in general, has meaning. There is a reason that this all happening. It just makes me so tired to go over and over in my mind that I don’t know what that meaning is. This Page of Wands asks me to get out of my head, to move away from my thoughts, and just listen to my soul’s calling. My soul does call me to me, I can simply listen and accept, instead of going back into my mind to analyze and despair over mental failings of understanding. This life is not to be understood in words and numbers, it is to be known in the depth of my soul. Now is the time to set aside the old habits of thinking and the burden of needing logical explanations.

How can I prepare for rebirth and set the stage for growth?- X of Swords
“The ego is the eternal limited by words.” Here I set the stage for growth by living the message from the Page of Wands: it is time to break free of the prison of my thoughts. The Swords represent the mental realm and all the energy I’ve been expending upon thinking and living in my thoughts. I have built up my self image there, my ego is wrapped up in my mind, I create and protect this image of myself with words and my attachment to my intelligence. The X represents an ending, but also a beginning. It contains both 10 and 1. It is the space in between, where I ready myself for transformation. I’m preparing for a way of being that includes silence and trust, instead of constant words and doubts. We each create our lives by the limits of our mindsets. What if we each adopted a mindset of limitlessness? What if we didn’t draw conclusions based on fear and anxiety? What if we let anything be possible? The image of the X of Swords is Scorpio, is Death, coming to sweep away old ways of thinking and create an open space for limitlessness.

I loved doing this little reading for myself this morning of the New Moon. The Mary El tarot just blows my mind every time I do with a reading with it. If you’re interested in receiving an email reading for your own New Moon energy and intention setting, please get in touch. Happiest of New Moons to you!

 

Tarot Blog Hop: Asking Advice of Our Ancestors

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For this edition of the Tarot Blog Hop we are focused around the the holiday of Samhain, this time of year when the veil between this world and the next is thinnest. Each blogger will be communing with the tarot and with their ancestors to see what interesting and rewarding connections can be made. I chose to use The Mary-el Tarot deck to communicate with my ancestors because I feel like this deck holds that magic potential to contact spirits and guides. Here are the cards I drew with the questions and interpretations that I gleaned from them below:fullsizerender

What ancestors am I communicating with today?- 7 of Cups
The Wolf is my animal self and my higher self. I encounter the Wolf when I go off of the well-beaten path through life and instead strike out on my own. When I create my own path through life, I encounter the Wolf. He leads me through my subconscious, reminding me that reality as I know it is just one way of perceiving some of what exists in my own way. The Wolf is earthy. He connects me to this planet. The Wolf is also otherworldly and mysterious, connecting me to the Moon.

When I asked what ancestors I’m communicating with, I’m not entirely sure what the answer is with this Wolf. He lies outside of that path through life that my ancestors created for me. He is all of reality and also outside of my reality. He shows that special meeting point when I change myself and therefore change reality, opening up the possibility of seeing more than I saw before. The Wolf is my spirit guide through the darkness.

What can you tell me about the meaning of human life on Earth?- Queen of Disks
The Queen of Disks is the embodiment of love on Earth. She is The Empress in physical form: womankind, motherhood, fertility, joy, and sustenance. The physical form is important to the meaning of life. The Wolf understands this and works harmoniously through the Queen of Discs. The Earth is where we are nurtured and where we grow. The limitations of physical bodies and senses constrain us, shaping us into societal norms. We are part of the garden of humanity, nurtured by this Queen. We are here to learn love, to learn joy, and to be shaped into abundant creatures.

What lessons do I need to use from my heritage?- 9 of Disks
This is the integration of all elements, the knowledge that I am made up of fire, water, air and earth in equal and balanced measures. The 9 of Disks reminds me to know myself and that I do already know myself.  I am a beautiful part of the natural order of life. I am meant to be here. I am an intentional person. I am part of the whole, connected to the eternal through my eternal soul as well as all the tiny bits of this and that which are a part of me for a instant and then gone. The lesson here is a simple but powerful reminder that I am a part of everything and this life has meaning.

What should I know about the present?- The Star
This card was immediately my favorite message from the Wolf ancestor. It was great to see a Major card for the present moment. This vibes with my desire to live fully in the now and bring hope and joy into it. Now is the most important time. Now is the only time. The Star is a messenger of hope. She shines bright in the darkness. She is authentic and true. She spreads peace and understanding. These are beautiful ideals to bring into the present. I must strive to be true to my Higher Self, to my inner Star. This requires me to set aside my ego, my illusions of separateness, my regrets, and my fears. To be The Star is no easy thing in practice, but at least it is a wonderfully easy thing to understand in theory. The theory is written upon our hearts. It is a constant in our souls. We all live in hope.

What message do I need about the future?- 6 of Swords
The imagine on the 6 of Swords is a heartwarming one. I see an angel guiding me and protecting me in my future. He is helping me along my path, providing lessons with empathy and thoughtfulness. This is the angel Raphael, who leads us towards completion and integration by enlightening us in our ignorance, healing us, and caring for us. His gentle manner allows the weaker and neglected aspects of myself to be helped along in order for me to become my whole self. I can lean on his acceptance and guidance in the future, knowing that this energy is a natural part of myself.

I enjoy how the symbol of the Wolf is now my friendly dog spirit guide in this image. This animal energy is as essential to me as the developing balance of masculine/feminine or light/dark energy represented by the children. The symbol of the caduceus that Raphael holds, which was also in the 9 of Disks, represents this perfect balance of all aspects and parts of myself coming together in harmony. What a peaceful message to keep in mind for the future. It might not be an easy path, but I am not alone or unprotected on it.

Well, there you go. Some messages from my ancestors. Why don’t you give this reading a try as well? I found it to be insightful and comforting. The Mary-el Tarot is suited to this type of reading with it’s heavy symbolism and deep spirituality. It would be interesting to do this with a more light-hearted deck and see if I got more whimsical messages or more something else. If you would like to read more thoughts and ideas about contacting your ancestors with the tarot, follow along on the Tarot Blog Hop!  Here are the links to hop along!!

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Greetings from the Mary-el Tarot Deck

For my birthday last week I was gifted the Mary-el Tarot deck by Marie White, published by Schiffer. This deck has been on my wish list for a number of years and I was super excited to receive it from my sister. I was also delighted to see that the deck came in a cute box with a magnetic lid and a companion book. I decided to ask the deck for a message and found it has some pretty deep lessons to teach me. It’s no wonder with this intense deck that big life wisdom is contained for me in the cards. The theme of the deck is described as “the alchemy of the soul; of finding balance, symmetry, mastery of the self, and becoming your own genius.”

Here is what the companion book had to say about the cards I drew from each of the elements from the Minor Arcana and one card from the Major Arcana:

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The Hierophant: “Babylon is a gateway to the powerful truths that lie inside us and are completely blasphemous to any who believe you need something external for redemption, salvation, happiness, an immortal soul, and life after death. She is a monster to those who fear their own power. She is a devil to those who fear the vision of their true self.” (pg 27) “Here you will dive into the jet black pit of earth, completely separate from God, and face your deepest fears and your shadows… And if successful, you will see it for what it is, embrace it and love it as part of yourself and you will become more whole and powerful and illusions about the earth will begin to melt away.” (pg 28)

Six of Wands: “Slay your dragons, conquer your demons. Be direct and forceful.” (pg 105) “The dragons are whatever opposes you or your situation. Spiritually the dragons are darkness and ignorance within ourselves. Illuminate the darkness with fire.” (pg 104)

Five of Swords: Work through the pain and suffering, illness, depression. Whatever is afflicting you, you must keep going. Question all paranoia. Resolve conflicts and disputes with reason and intelligence.” (pg 99)

Nine of Cups: “Accept who/what/where you are with compassion, love, amazement, and humor.” (pg132) “In our earthly incarnation we live with both black and white in somewhat equal measure and they weave themselves into the checkered ground pattern that we walk upon. No matter where you step, you will surely have some black and some white under your feet.” (pg 130)

Knight of Discs: “Don’t look outside for the answer to the problem, look inside to find peace. You already have everything you are looking for. Look in your own home. Do not have doubt in yourself, you are made for this and already have all the tools. Take the middle path, use just what you need, no more or less.” (pg 162)
WOW, that’s a lot to take in, but my overall impression is one of finding wholeness within myself. I am made up of both light and shadow, happiness and depression, health and illness, loss and gain, suffering and relief. I am part of the black and white duality of existence. When I embrace this, my wholeness, and my connection to both Earth and Spirit, I am in the present and I am me. This isn’t a goal or a static state. Life is a continuously unfolding balance between different states, cycling around and around in never-ending flow. Somedays I will find the force to conquer my demons head on. Somedays I will have the mental fortitude to reason my way through my demons. Somedays I will find joy and wonder in my amazing accomplishments. Somedays I will stride along the middle path between Earth and Spirit with certitude. Every day I will be a conduit for that connection without end.