A Self-Love Message from The New Moon in Leo, August 11, 2018

Another Moon cycle has passed! At this New Moon in Leo we are gifted the last eclipse of the year- thank goodness! There have been a series of 3 eclipses starting on July 12th and ending on August 11th, activating significant shakedowns in people born with personal planets and points at approximately 14 to 24 degrees of the fixed signs of Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, and Aquarius. My Moon sign is right in there and honestly, I’ve just been feeling a big need for change, even at the same time that I just don’t have energy for it, feel pretty uncomfortable about it, and am resisting the instability. Yes, change is good in theory, but the enacting of it is quite difficult!!

Anywho, if you’re feeling the pressure to create new systems in your life, this New Moon is a great time to sit down and reflect on what aspects of your life routine no longer fit with your current picture of who you want to be. It could be something really obvious, “Why am I still doing this!?” Or it could be an activity that you greatly enjoyed in the past, but now isn’t helping you to grow. It can be hard to let go of feelings, people, work, or hobbies that once filled us with such great joy, but doing this clearing out is important. Do your clear with love and attention, allowing the practice of gratitude for all of those things while still letting them go to create space for the new, for what wants to come through you now.

The Leo energy of this New Moon is a wonderful support for this process of change. Leo builds self-confidence and self-love. Leo shines out the brilliant light from within. Leo knows how to have fun, be creative, and enjoy the shit out of life. This reinvention process, this clearing out and letting go, this leveling up to a higher vibration, all that can be enjoyable and life-giving with the Fire energy of Leo at your back. Let’s each ask the tarot some really simple questions about setting out intentions for this New Moon Cycle. Try this spread out and let me know how it goes!

In what ways can I increase my self-confidence and be courageous in my actions?
How can I expand my self-love so that I am able to just be authentically me?
Which of my creations deserves to be center stage during this moon cycle?

Here are the cards I drew for us all the consider:

Linestrider Tarot: Three of Wands rx, Seven of Pentacles rx, The High Priestess rx

In what ways can I increase my self-confidence and be courageous in my actions?-
III of Wands reversed
Have a vision for your best life. What do you want to accomplish? What are your dreams? Where do you want to go? What adventures and explorations do you want to go on? These are concepts, ideas, and questions that we forget to delve into after we set goals once and then get into the step-by-step actions of working towards them. But what about redirecting our goals? What about redefining what we want? Now is a time to step back and reassess where you are headed. Do you still want to be working towards those goals you set years ago? Are your dreams shifting and changing with the times but your actions are not changing and shifting as well to meet those new goals? Define your dreams, make a vision board, or a 5 year plan, or record a video of yourself explaining what it is you want for yourself in this life. Take action to reassess your bigger life vision.

Sometimes we just don’t know what we want. This can be hard, “What do I even want to do with my life!?” Not knowing can be severely challenging, especially since asking once and not knowing can lead to anxiety and fear of asking again. Don’t allow that fear to stop you from trying to figure this out again and don’t let fear stop you from guessing. You’ll learn in good time that you’re on the wrong path and you know what? You’ll be able to course correct, you’ll be able to change things. You don’t have to have the full plan, you don’t have to have confidence that your plan is foolproof and you will succeed, you don’t have to trust that the Universe will make this all happen for you. The only thing you need is confidence in yourself, trust in yourself, faith in yourself that you’re doing the best you can with the knowledge and feelings that you currently have access to. If you can access deeper wells of self-confidence, increase your knowledge, explore you feelings more, that is great- do that if you want! But if you’re as deep into as you can get and just stalling for time because you’re unsure of success- forget success. Redefine success to mean “just trying my hardest with the resources I currently have.” Perfect, you’re ready to go.

How can I expand my self-love so that I am able to just be authentically me?-
VII of Pentacles rx
It’s time to assess what you do have. It’s time to practice a some major gratitude. It’s time to fully acknowledge all that you have done. We still have many planets in retrograde in the sky, which is the best energy for reflecting and reassessing. What have you been up to? I’m guessing it’s not sitting around doing nothing (although, if your plan was to sit around and do nothing and you did it- well that’s a major accomplishment! Good on you for doing that self care time!). Make a list of everything that you’re done recently, either towards a specific goal, or just in general in your life. You’ll notice that you have taken some steps towards creating the life you want. Even if you’re not there yet, you’re definitely closer than before. It’s important to show that work and progress the respect it deserves.

While practicing this gratitude, you’ll be able to see yourself reflected in your actions. What type of person are you? Are you kind and generous with your resources? Are you reliable and dependable when given responsibility? Are you involved and dedicated to causes that means something to you? Are you loving and open in your relationships? Notice the ways that you show up in other people’s lives and be proud of yourself. You’re a wonderful sister, mother, aunt, best friend, etc. Extend that love into yourself. You can be someone who loves and accepts themselves. You are enough. You do enough. That’s what the VII of Pentacles wants you to look inside and see right now.

Which of my creations deserves to be center stage during this moon cycle?-
The High Priestess reversed
Your intuition wants to take center stage right now, but you’re still resisting that inner knowing. I’m not going to downplay the difficulty of getting into your calm inner center and acting from a place of intuitive knowing. We get no training in this practice, in fact, most of us are told to ignore our gut reactions and that intuition is junk and silly. You do have an intuitive gift though, we all do, and at this Leo New Moon you are being asked to bring that inner gift out and use it. It’s not going to be easy or natural, this will take a bit of effort, and probably a quiet place of stillness where you can concentrate and focus on yourself. Your greatest creation at this New Moon is an increased awareness and use of your intuition, this is the area from which you can create all that you want to manifest in this world.

If, on the other hand, you’re all intuition, all the time, I invite you to take a step back from that practice for the moon cycle and give yourself a break. Perhaps you are a tarot reader or a healer, or just a super empathic person who takes on the energy of those around you quite easier. You may need to spend some time cleansing yourself of the emotional cords and ties that are bound to you from all of that relating to others. Taking a break from an overworked intuitive power can be a challenge, especially if you are relying on it for your profession and paying the bills, but taking a break is required sometimes. We all have cycles of energy in our lives, that’s why I’m here writing about the energetic cycles of the moon! Take a look at how you’re using your intuitive gifts, go deep within and notice, then work on healing and enhancing that gift to share with others once you are rested.

There you have it! I hope you enjoyed the New Moon Reading for the coming moon cycle headed by the fiery energy of Leo. If you would like a personalized New Moon Reading, please get in touch!

A Birthday Reading for my 36th Year!

A birthday reading for me! My birthday was already a month ago but I drew cards on the day and have slowly been writing up this reading for myself to share with you here on the blog. I love doing birthday readings just as much as I love doing New Year readings; they have a very similar energy of new beginnings and endless possibilities. I’m lucky to have a birthday just about halfway through the year so it’s a great time to check in with where I was at the start of the year, reexamine goals and growth, and determine the best path forward from here. If you don’t happen to have a birthday in June or July, a great time to do a check in reading for the year is at the Summer Solstice. Next year I’m planning on offering a package reading that includes a New Year reading and a Summer Solstice reading, so look for that option to pop up in December.  Fun, right?!

Okay, back to me and my birthday! Strength is my year card for this 36th year of my life. I determine year cards by adding together all the numbers of the current date for the birthday and then reducing it down to a number between 1-9. So for my birthday on July, 8, 2018 that looks like this:

7+8+2+0+1+8= 26 then 2+6= 8 viola!  8 is the number for Strength.

You can also find your tarot birth card in this same manner, to determine which tarot card acts as a theme for your entire life. So for example, with my birth date of July 8, 1982:

7+8+1+9+8+2= 35 then 3+5= 8 viola! 8 is Strength 🙂

So guess what? Strength is my tarot birth card as well! That makes this feel like a very special year for me. Double Strength! Who doesn’t love that? A year card is a tarot card that acts as a theme for the entire year ahead. It is a foundational energy that can be accessed more easily during the year, one that can be drawn upon and utilized to create great magic during this spin around the sun. I wrote a post about Strength earlier this year here, so you can get an idea of what a Strength year ahead holds. I also include a 4-5 page PDF about your year card if you order a birthday reading from me!  Something to consider 🙂

Next, using Strength as my theme card for the year, I drew six more tarot cards to address different aspects of the year ahead.  Here is what I drew:

Tarot spread using the Linestrider Tarot deck

1. How will the Strength card manifest itself in my life?- Page of Cups reversed
2. What lessons do I need to learn this year?- IX of Cups
3. What particular area of my life needs focus?- King of Swords
4. What obstacles stand in my way this year?- VIII of Pentacles
5. What can help me achieve my goals this coming year?- X of Pentacles
6. What kind of year can I expect to experience?- Justice reversed

Linestrider Tarot

Let’s explore this spread a bit! I’m also interested to look back at the reading I did for myself in January for 2018 and see if there are any repeating lessons, obstacles, etc. or if I’ve had some major energetic shifts since the beginning of this calendar year. What strikes me right away is that in my January 2018 reading I drew the Queen of Wands reversed as my theme card for the year. In today’s reading I’m using Strength as my theme card for my 36th year. The Queen of Wands reversed and Strength very much vibrate on the same energetic wavelength in my heart, mind, and body. Both are Fire energy, creativity, passion, bravery, charisma, and holding fast to what makes life worth living. The reversal of the Queen of Wands earlier in the year could indicate that that energy has been dormant or latent potential inside of me that is now ready to more fully manifest in action.

Knowing that I would like to take concrete steps towards living in my Strength is a good start. It’s great to know what you want, what you’re striving for, what lights you up inside. Just having any idea of what your goal is in this crazy confusing world is a major first step, so go me for knowing what I want! I want to strengthen my inner spirit, live closer to my passions, feel deeper into my inspirations, and lead a creative life. I don’t want to force things, constantly working myself to the bone, but rather allow my energy to flow. Like many people, I have the tendency feel inadequate if I’m not constantly working or pushing myself towards the next goal. To live in Strength means acknowledging, accepting, and surrendering to the times of rest, relaxation, and being. I am enough right now.

Linestrider Tarot

Let’s continue with the Page of Cups reversed as an indicator of how Strength will show up for me going forward. I see this as a kind and gentle message to work on re-patterning my emotional realm. The Page is a beginning, a start, something fresh and new and is the energy I need to take when reassessing and reconfiguring how I approach my emotions, my emotional responses, and my emotional patterns. The way that I have been experiencing my feelings for the past 35 years is something that I’m questioning right now. Do I have to have these reactions? Do certain situations have to evoke programmed emotional responses? Or can I decide to react differently and make new patterns that better reflect the way I want to live and experience the world? The Page of Cups supports this going within to reflect upon my emotional world and will hold my hand while I sort out what new ways I want to feel.

Strength and the Page of Cups seem like complimentary energies to me. Strength lends backbone and confidence to the immature and developing Page. Where the Page of Cups reversed could be scared or uncertain when facing the unknown landscape of creating new neural pathways for her emotions, with Strength by her side she bravely marches forward. The Page of Cups reversed does require a lot of support from Strength, thereby diluting some of the power of Strength, stretching Strength thin and limiting my reach this year. If I’m only at a beginning stage in creating the healthy emotional patterns I desire, I can’t expect Strength to magically transport me to the next level without doing the work. The Page of Cups reversed reminds me of to be patient and diligent. This will take time, but if I don’t start at all, I will never make any progress in my evolution. I need to constantly remind myself to accept where I am at in my development and surrender to the process.

Linestrider Tarot

Taking this emotional re-patterning a step further, the IX of Cups shows up as the lesson I will learn this 36th year. This card advises me to enjoy the work, revel in my emotions, find joy in expressing myself and my feelings. I have a tendency to hide my emotions in my little Crab shell, sidestepping direct communication of my inner world with those around me who seem untrustworthy, or simply unworthy, which ends up being most people. The IX of Cups says, “No, don’t hide. Be open. Be bright. Share what you are going through.” I can do that sharing here on my blog or in person with new friends and old. My natural inclination is to listen until I am absolutely certain that what I say will be heard, but maybe it’s just time to speak without any assurance that anyone will understand or care. That is scary, but that is owning my emotions as valid and authentic to me, and that being the only thing that matters when I decide how and when to express myself.

In my reading from January, I drew the VIII of Cups reversed as a message about how I would experience my Fire energy in 2018. Seeing the next card in the sequence, the IX of Cups come up here gives me a sense of progress being made. I have been putting in a lot of energy around understanding and examining my emotions. I’m not just saying I should do this, I’m realizing that I am doing this! This little step from the VIII to the IX makes me feel proud of myself. I want to acknowledge my progress. I’m by no means about to stop the process and call this book written, I’m just saying that I have been able to let go of certain modes of interacting with my inspiration and processing my feelings that I do not believe are in my best interest. It’s amazing to live with my Higher Self on a daily basis, allowing that self to be revealed to me as I am ready to understand me.

Linestrider Tarot

Then along comes the King of Swords, who is here to act as a balance or counterpoint to all that freedom of self-expression and pouring forth of emotions. The King of Swords lets me know that there is a logical and honest way to share my emotions. I can speak my truth and communicate my message in direct and straightforward ways. I can be emotionally open without having to go against my airy Aquarius Moon which makes me want to distance myself and share my emotions more objectively than subjectively. In other words, I don’t have to start writing flowery poetry using cliche metaphors, or share tear-filled Instagram stories all about my feelings. I don’t have to be someone I’m not. The King of Swords is deeply in touch with his feelings, emotionally mature, and controlled. He excels in the communication of those feelings with honesty, self-acceptance, and unquestioning knowing.

The King of Swords is that bit of intellectual support that tells me that I’ll live, speaking my truth won’t kill me. He knows that fear is a part of the process, it won’t stop me from trying. He is willing to get uncomfortable in order to grow and be himself. He doesn’t get all upset if someone criticizes him. My message isn’t for everyone, not everyone will need my words, explanations, or epiphanies. The King of Swords easily comprehends that we are all at various stages of our emotional growth and doesn’t look down or judge those that can’t understand or won’t understand his message at this moment. This card blends well with Strength as the King of Swords is very courageous and bold. Armed with my truth, I will speak my mind and live authentically.

Linestrider Tarot

Next up in this reading comes my obstacle for the year ahead, for which I drew the VIII of Pentacles. Work, work, work. That’s what the VIII of Pentacles always makes me think. Is putting in the work an obstacle? I suppose we all suffer from just wanting to be done and perfect and understand and move on to the next level. Mastery is highly sought and lavishly praised. I have never been a master of much. I consider myself a bit of a Renaissance women, knowing a bit of this and that, good at a thing or two, a dilettante, or most basely- a dabbler. The idea of truly dedicating myself to one discipline, one project, one area, does seem like a huge obstacle. I’m not even sure what I would focus on, what I would want to be a master of?

Often the image on the VIII of Pentacles depicts a person creating physical pentacles. I like the idea that I could be creating something physical this year. I’ve been working on designing my own tarot deck for years now using photographs from my travels. I haven’t been particularly pressed to finish this deck, but I do want to make progress and get more of the images selected and description writing done. I can imagine myself as the worker bee from the VIII of Pentacles, diligently dedicating my time and energy to this project. I can also channel the Knight of Pentacles that I drew at the beginning of the year as a support card for the year ahead. The Knight is a wonder at diligence, follow through, and steadfastly plodding along after a goal. I’m optimistic that my dedication to my creative project will continue throughout the year ahead and that I’ll make major headway.

Linestrider Tarot

The X of Pentacles indicates what can help me reach my goals this year. My first thought- MONEY! Yes, money would surely help me reach many of my goals in the coming year. I could dedicate my time and resources to creating my tarot deck. I could buy a home. I could have really fantastic travel adventures, etc. Money can buy a lot of things. I’ll certainly keep myself open to the Universe offering me chances to bring abundant wealth into my life, but in the meantime, I can also work on my own definition of material abundance. What does it feel like to have enough? Am I appreciating everything that I already have? Can I do more or different things with the resources that I currently possess? Delving into these types of questions and exploring my money mindset even more in the year ahead will help me reach my goals going forward.

The X energy of this card is the energy of an ending and also of a new beginning. In other words, I’m in the middle of a transition. I’m wrapping things up as well as starting things fresh and in that process I get to make a lot of decisions about how I want to show up in the physical world. What ways of being in this body, in this world, on this Earth do I want to let go of and what new ways do I want to develop? In the past year, I’ve been really focused on creating a healthy lifestyle and the habits I believe support that healthy lifestyle. That was the active energy of The Chariot last year, a year in which I decided to eat vegan, moderate my drinking, sleep more, change my exercise habits, do work that is very physical (cleaning houses), meditate daily, align my body at the chiropractor, hydrate, make new friends, and move into a new living situation without roommates. Holy crap! When I look back on that list now and see all the things I have changed in the last year, I am blown away by the progress I have made, the changes I have made, the difference in the way that I feel in my body now. That makes me want to write a lot about The Chariot year!

Anyway, without getting too caught up in another idea for a blog post, I’ll simply say that the X of Pentacles combined with the energy of Strength lends me the energy to persevere in the year ahead. I can appreciate the healthy habits I have integrated into my life in the past year and use Strength to continue those practices. I know that not every day will be be perfect, but Strength helps me be consistent. This is all a practice and I won’t eat, drink, sleep, exercise, and relax to perfection every day, but I can trust that those practices are part of me now. I can begin a new phase with this lifestyle as my foundation for living. Now what can my life be like going forward from this point? The X of Pentacles reminds me to appreciate all that I have integrated and begin this year as a fresh version of myself.

Linestrider Tarot

Lastly, I drew Justice reversed as an indicator of what type of year ahead I can expect. I’ll admit, Justice is not a card that I connect with deeply. Whenever I draw it in a reading I am little taken aback- what does this mean? I welcome this opportunity to work with this card in the year ahead, to consider its meanings and implications, and watch this energy play out in my life. I immediately think, “Well, I’m going to learn a lot about how unfair life can be, how unjust, how dishonest.” And maybe that’s true! I’m not going to say I have a particularly rosy view of the world, especially our current Western political, economic, and social structures. Do I need to get more into that? Do I require more examples of how fucked up and unfair things are around me? I don’t feel like I need that, but it kind of seems like that’s what I’m going to get. Perhaps the world is bringing me to my breaking point, a point at which I will be forced to work harder towards solutions. I aim to create space for light, consciousness, and love in this world, but I’m sure I could do that on a bigger scale. Perhaps this year will bring me to that point of expansion. Boy, that sure doesn’t sound like very much fun, but if there’s one thing I’m learning right now, it’s that transition and growth often feel terrible, hard, and sad even as they bring deep meaning.

It will be important for me in the year ahead to make sure I am taking responsibility for my actions, thoughts, and feelings. Yes, there are lots of things in this world that are outside of my control, but I can’t shirk my role as the master of my own reactions. Many of my reactions are preprogrammed habits that do not serve me and do not exemplify how I actually want to react. It takes my time and effort to change these programs, to consciously move away from knee-jerk responses and instead consider what is actually a reasonably and fair way to react. I will work on that in the year ahead, work on my reactions to injustice and unfairness and reprogram myself to respond in a way that creates the change I want to see in the world. I will hold myself accountable for showing up the way I want others to show up, to be responsible, to be a role model, to treat others and myself with honesty, integrity and fairness. The King of Swords who came up earlier in this reading as a focus for this year also emphasizes this need for honesty and integrity to rule my year ahead.

Justice reversed as well as the King of Swords both speak to the reprograming of Air energy, of mental patterns in my life. The Page of Cups and IX of Cups are about emotional patterns. The Pentacles cards point out reprogramming of physical patterns. And Strength is the overarching mission to guide all this effort with spiritual energy. Obviously, I’m feeling ambitious and grand this morning as I read these cards for my year ahead. I will remember to check in with this reading occasionally, especially at the New Moon reading times to see what progress and development occurs. I hope you enjoyed reading this birthday reading for me. Get in touch any time if you need a little birthday reading for yourself!

Nourishing Our Wholeness with the New Moon in Cancer, July 12th, 2018

Another New Moon is upon us, and this one falls in the sign of Cancer. Cancer brings to the foreground the home, family, motherhood, security, emotions, food, the past/ancestors, and nourishing our very souls. The sign of Cancer is ruled by the Moon, so every year’s New Moon in Cancer is a powerful time to set intentions for new beginnings in these areas, but this year’s New Moon is even more potent as it also involves a partial solar eclipse. An eclipse, in traditional astrology, is a time of change and new beginnings. This heightened energy for change means that the moves we make now towards creating the amazing lives of our dreams are much more likely to have long term effects. Take some time today to reflect on the changes you would like to make to your home, your relationships, your sense of safety and support in the world. You can use these questions to ask your tarot deck for guidance:

~How can I tap into and honor my deepest needs and feelings?
~What changes or new beginnings will best support my home and family life?
~What changes or new beginnings will create security and foundation in my life?
~How can I best nourish and care for myself and those I love?
~What aspects of my past do I need to process and then let go of?
~What aspects of my past serve me well now and into the future?
~How can I set boundaries within my family so I have the space and love to grow?
~How can I be more empathetic?
~Where do I need to foster more love and connection in my life?
~What adds to my sense of safety and security in the world?

Below is a tarot reading I did for us all, offering us guidance at this New Moon time. I didn’t ask any specific question, besides that Cancer give us a message for the moon cycle ahead. I drew one card from three different decks just for fun! It’s interesting to see how meaning can be combined across types of deck:

Mary-el Tarot 6 of Disks, Animal Spirits Knowledge Cards Rabbit, Lunar Nomad Oracle #28 Man

Let me start with Rabbit from the Animal Spirits Knowledge cards, our animal spirit guide for the month ahead. Rabbit is a lunar feminine energy, with many cultures actually seeing a rabbit on the face of the Moon in the sky overhead. The Rabbit guides us through the lunar energy of Cancer season with sensitivity, intuition, empathy, and warmth. Imagine measuring life with the Moon, how would we mark the months, the seasons, time itself. Rabbit as the Moon holds great power to demarcate the cycles of our lives, creating familiarity and patterns in a chaotic world. Many may not notice consciously the cycles of the moon, but the Moon revels in the subconscious anyway. She is a part of us, a constant, a pattern buried deep within us of light and dark even throughout the night. The Rabbit reminds us in the month ahead to appreciate cycles, take comfort in constants, celebrate our shadows, and own the personal power we hold deep inside.

The 6 of Disks in the Mary-el Tarot shows the angel Gabriel in both masculine and feminine form, representing the duality and non-binary aspect of the divine. This divinity is within us all. We each hold the outward, masculine, doing energy as well as the inward, feminine, being energy. Gabriel is the “Strength of God”, she is the messenger who tells us all that we can manifest whatever it is we came here to do. We have that power. We are each on an individual mission, a plan, a life with a purpose and we were born with everything we need to manifest that meaning. Yes, you were born with divine gifts, you are one with your higher self, you are a holistic being. Still the manifestation of your gifts requires your effort, your commitment, your blood, sweat, and tears. Never fear that it isn’t worth it, that it isn’t working, that you will fail. Do not doubt. Put in the work and earn your rewards. You are wholly capable and deserving.

The Man from the Lunar Nomad Oracle card strikes me in it’s imagery so reminiscent of the traditional Strength card of the Rider Waite Smith tarot deck. On Strength we see a woman with a lion, whereas on this oracle card we see a man and a lion. Generally, Strength is thought of as a feminine energy with it’s counterpart, The Chariot, representing masculine energy. Once again, as with the 6 of Disks, with The Man we are confronted by the duality within each of us, our ability to hold simultaneously both masculine and feminine energy. Subduing the lion, harnessing and pacifying that energy is a beautiful and courageous thing to do. At other times we need to provoke the lion within us, take action, be brave and daring. This melds perfectly with the 6 of Disk’s message to internally believe we are strong and capable and to USE that belief by acting out our passions and intentions. The Man gives us the impetus, the will to go for it!

There is so much we can manifest in this life. There is so much we are capable of doing. The key is to believe deeply in ourselves. We need to believe in our personal power, our ability to do great things, our meaning and purpose in this lifetime. We also need to take risks, to act, to work hard at what we want to be, create, and do. These are not two sides of the same coin, they are simply us, our wholeness. We don’t have to be this and then that, we can be everything all at once. That is connecting to the higher self, the divinity within us that doesn’t take sides, doesn’t differentiate, but simply allows it all to be present right now. Be fully present in the now at this New Moon in Cancer!

There you have it, another beautiful New Moon reading for you all. I hope you enjoyed it! If you would like a personalized New Moon reading, please get in touch. I’m available for email readings and in-person readings in the Nashville, TN area.

 

Tarot Blog Hop: The Knight of Cups Sings His Heart Out

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Welcome to the Summer Solstice edition of the Tarot Blog Hop! I hope you are enjoying the longest day of the year if you too find yourself in the Northern Hemisphere. I love me some long summer nights, even though it actually doesn’t stay light out that late where I live in Tennessee since we’re right on the edge of Central Time. It’s all good! Someday I’d love to spend the Summer Solstice in Alaska or northern Norway to see the sun stay up, up, up above the horizon for days at a time. #goals!

To me, “The Things I Regret” is so the theme song for the Knight of Cups. First off, it has a jaunty beat that reminds me of the pace at which the Knight of Cups would ride his horse. It’s not too fast, not to slow, but constantly moving. It feels like a spirited trot, constantly seeking, constantly exploring, constantly idealizing. You can feel the movement and action and determination of the Knight energy in the music and in the voice of Brandi Carlile as she sings in her ever so earnest way.

Then come the lyrics which are all about love, longing, open-heartedness, romantic ideals dashed, heartbreak, and soul searching. The lyrics speak to me of the push and pull of the emotional landscape of the Knight of Cups. Love is the key to the deepest happiness but it is also the easiest way to fall into the blackest of despair. Love is destined, it is out of our hands, but it is also all our fault when it unravels. Love will set you free but it will also keep you trapped in an endless loop of doubts and regrets. Love is the only thing worth living for but it makes love unspeakable hard.

Here are the lyrics for you to read through so you can see what I’m talking about:

Knight of Cups
Rider Waite Smith deck

There’s a hole in my pocket where my dreams fell through,
From a sidewalk in the city to the avenue
There’s a leak in my dam ‘bout the size of a pin,
And I can’t quite remember where the water’s getting in

But when you’re wearing on your sleeve,
All the things you regret,
You can only remember what you want to forget
You feel it tugging at your heart,
Like the stars overhead,
‘Til you rest your bones on the killing bed

Let them roll over me.
Let them roll over me,
When I doubt you
Let them roll over me.
Let them roll over me,
When I doubt you

Knight of Cups
Shadowscapes Tarot

With the weight of the world resting on my back,
And the road on which I’ve traveled is as long as it is cracked
But I keep pressing forward with my feet to the ground,
For a heart that is broken makes a beautiful sound

But when you’re wearing on your sleeve,
All the things you regret,
You can only remember what you want to forget

Let them roll over me
Let them roll over me,
When I doubt you.
Let them roll over me
Let them roll over me,
When I doubt you

Knight of Cups
Linestrider Tarot

I walk through my days like a ghost in a dream,
But the field carries on and my past follows me
It’s hard moving on from the things you done wrong,
When they play in your head like an old fashioned song

But when you’re wearing on your sleeve,
All the things you regret,
You can only remember what you want to forget

Lonely miles,
Without you

Lonely miles,
Without youLet the ground keep my bones
Let the water be my home
Let the dust hold my soul,
                                                              Like a holy rolling stone

You’ll notice there are quite a few references to water in this song, which reminds me of the suit of Cups representing the Water element. The water is his home and his emotions are a leaky dam. There is so much emotion and water in here, and it isn’t the kind of mature, self-assured emotions you would expect from a Queen of a King. It also isn’t that fresh and trusting emotional naiveté of a Page. Here we are somewhere in the middle of learning about love and feelings and getting our hearts trampled but also not being the best of partners. We all can relate to these growing pains, hopefully learning from our mistakes and responding differently next time we experience challenges.

There is hope in the Knight of Cups. He will “keep pressing forward with my feet to the ground” even though it’s lonely and miserable, disorienting and seemingly endless work. That’s life! That’s love! There’s not much we can do about it but keep trying. Through it all is a sense of the deep beauty of love, “for a heart that is broken, makes a beautiful sound.” That is just the kind of romantic language that the Knight of Cups would spout out to a friend over a few drinks at the bar. That friend is probably a songwriter who will turn that heartache into something as beautiful as this song.

Okay, that’s enough of my song analysis 🙂 I hope you are enjoying the Tarot Blog Hop and hop along to the next post, or go backwards, it’s all in the fun of the thing!  Happy Summer Solstice!!

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Learning and Integrating with the New Moon in Gemini, June 13, 2018

Happy New Moon in Gemini! As we start off another cycle with the Moon, this time we are given the airy, communicative energy of Gemini to guide us through the next four weeks. Gemini rules over the realm of the mind, so this month I thought I would help us connect our mind to our intuitive side by using the Mary-el Tarot deck for our moon reading. Whoa, this deck always blows me away with its depth. It takes me to another realm of the subconscious and intuitive realm more than any other tarot deck that I use. For this reason, I have refrained from doing readings for other people with this deck. I rely heavily upon the book that Marie White includes with her deck and love delving into the esoteric ideas that she communicates therein. Gemini energy loves to communicate lessons so this month I’m exploring what we can learn and how we can use those lessons in the coming month ahead. Enjoy!

Mary-El Tarot deck

What lessons can I learn during the Gemini moon cycle?- Queen of Wands
This Queen is a master of her internal fire energy. She carries a light that shines brightly in all the darkest corners of her inner world. This light illuminates that which wants to remain hidden- the true self. It can be scary and difficult to face our true self. We want to hide, we want to show up as society would have us be, we want to be “normal.” Yet, each of us is unique and incredible, fierce and bright, strong and capable. The Queen of Wands asks you to learn the lesson of self-confidence, of self-reliance, and of self-love. She wants you to hold up a mirror and look at your true self and see yourself as a gift, as perfect, as the miracle that you are incarnate. She fills this act with warmth and kindness, using her inner fire to make you feel secure and safe revealing yourself. At this Gemini New Moon, you can learn about the potential that you hold within you. You can learn to be self-assured and luminous like the Queen of Wands.

Mary-El Tarot deck

How can I integrate this lesson into my experience?- The Moon
There is something mysterious and unknowable about this process of self-realization and self-actualization. Where does your “yourness” reside? What makes you “you”? Why can’t you transform into someone else? Your only option is to come more fully into yourself, to be more authentic, to be more confident, to be more you. The Moon asks you to use your intuition and explore the area of your subconscious in order to access your inner Queen of Wands. The Moon is your secret place, your inner realm, your hidden side that you want to keep away from the world. It’s your dark side of the moon, never brought into the light. What purpose does all the secrecy serve? This Gemini moon cycle asks you to reveal yourself, to go within, shine a light, and emerge from that darkest of places in order to show up in this lifetime. You cannot show up for your life and really experience it when you are expending so much energy hiding your true self. Use the light of the Moon, the energy of the Moon, the intuition of the moon, to allow yourself to become more fuller yourself during this cycle.

Mary-El Tarot deck

What secret does Gemini have to share with me now?- 8 of Discs
In this card we see an image of the binary world, of two sides coming together, of the Twins of Gemini standing together but never touching. In the space between these two pillars of energy there is an innocent and pure lamb. This lamb represents you. It represents your ability to be more than one thing, to have more than one side, to be multi-faceted, and exist in the space between. The space between is balance, it is truth, and it is honest. This space is also light and airy, just like Gemini. It isn’t heavy or dark, but free and transformational. You can exist in a lighter and freer space when you give up the cultural mandate to pick sides, to see things in black and white, or to choose either/or. What if you chose both? This Gemini New Moon is an opportunity to explore the riddle of what exists outside of opposites, or what happens when you don’t take sides, and how you can choose more than one option if you use your creativity.

I hope you enjoyed this tarot reading for the New Moon in Gemini. I hope it generates a desire to do some deep thinking. Gemini energy is great for thinking! Use all those brilliant thoughts to explore something totally irrational, like intuition. This world we live in is not as black and white and binary as we have come to accept. Accept nothing! Question everything! That will make for an interesting month ahead with the powerful insight and creativity of Gemini on your side.

Reflections on the Archetype of Strength

I picked Strength as my word of the year for 2018. It is more than just a word to me though, it is a whole archetype. It contains so much more than just one word or idea. Today, I’m going to write a little bit about what I think Strength means, how I’m working with it this year, and how you too can draw on the energy of Strength when you need a boost of energy, confidence, and stamina.

Shadowscapes Tarot

First and foremost, working with Strength for me is about building confidence. Strength is an energy that you can channel to prop yourself up when you need confidence, courage, and stamina. I know I often need more of that type of energy in my life. It is so easy to feel overwhelmed, anxious, and exhausted. Calling on Strength reminds me that I have deep reserves of inner fortitude, and that I can endure my challenges. In fact, I can do more than endure my challenges, I can blossom, grow, and build myself up throughout the process of confronting obstacles, roadblocks, and setbacks in my path.

Strength is also about perseverance and fortitude. It is the ability to just keep going even when I am worn out, struggling, or just plain tired to the bone. I have deep reserves of energy meant specifically for the areas of my life that are most important to me. If I really want something, if it really lights me up inside and gives me purpose, I will find a way to make myself keep going and strive. It’s easy to pinpoint the things that aren’t part of my life purpose, because there is just no energy or perseverance for completing them. When I don’t follow through on these things, I don’t feel deeply unsatisfied and disappointed. When something doesn’t get done and it doesn’t show up again at another time for a second chance at tackling it, it just wasn’t part of my ultimate path.

Strength means I don’t give up when things get tough, instead I dig deep and I find deeper answers and meaning because of that struggle and exhaustion. We are all trying to avoid pain and suffering, isn’t that only natural? But what else is natural is the meaning and purpose we derive from pushing through and doing the hard and difficult things that make us so uncomfortable. It’s in the pain and discomfort and feat that the story of purpose unfolds. When we are channeling Strength it’s easier to hear those messages of meaning. When we  ask Strength for assistance on something that doesn’t actually resonate with our soul purpose, Strength just kind of ignores us and no surge of endurance emerges to allow us to keep going. Working with Strength is working with our intuition.

Sometimes we do breakdown though. Sometimes we reach exhaustion, we fail, we shut down, we go into overdrive and burn out. In that moment, there is also a profound connection to Strength. Life tests us in excruciating ways simply to connect us to that extraordinary Strength we each hold within ourselves. It’s painful but it’s not wrong and we don’t have to suffer through it. We can lean into the pain, wrapped in the knowledge of our Strength, knowing we’ll pull through. This isn’t the end, it is simply a resting point.

Strength is not brute forth, it is endurance, it is the long run, it creates energy even as we are on our last legs, propelling us just a few steps farther. Strength is the tortoise, not the hare. Strength may even appear to crumple or stop or stagnate but she is just resting, and the resting point is crucial and beautiful. There is a subtle growth in the rest that indicates almost inpercetible continuation of movement. You can still feel that movement within you if you tune into that enduring vibration of Strength that is always pulsing in your center.

The Wild Unknown Tarot

Strength is also about control, aware of creating her life in collaboration with Fate. Fate is not running the show, but rather works in harmony with our shifting interpretations and perceptions of our reality. Strength allows you to be conscious and awake to the reactions you have to Fate. You can decide how you interpret and live in life’s troubles and problems. Strength allows you to choose your own reality, to decide how to react to the world around you. When life gives you lemons, do you make lemonade? Do you look for the silver lining? Do you treat misfortune as an opportunity to learn something, a lesson buried within? Strength allows you to entertain the prospect that everything happens for a reason. She also allows you to accept that you’ll probably never know that reason and just have to believe and have faith.

Strength is acceptance but she is also your internal badass who totally has your back, massaging your shoulders in the corner of the ring, “Now go out there and fight!” Most of the fight is just against yourself, the little voice of doubt in your head, “You are bad at this. You have nothing to offer. No one will understand you. People will misunderstand, misinterpret, and twist your words and then BLAME you for their mistakes. You will cause mistakes. You are not good enough.” Blah, blah, blah! That little voice could go on for days but Strength is the angel on your shoulder whispering that, “You are good enough. You are worthy. Your uniqueness is a gift. You can grow. You are ready. We are all one. People want to hear from you. You can do it.” She is really good at being the cheerleader and being the coach.

I have many more things I could say about Strength, but that is going to be all for today 🙂 I hope you connect deeply with your inner Strength whenever you need it! Did you pick a word of the year? Care to share?

Tarot Blog Hop: Teaching Connection through Tarot

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Welcome to the Beltane Tarot Blog Hop! Beltane marks the beginning of summer, the waxing of the sun, the beauty of fertile Earth coming fully to life to nourish us all. It is just wonderfully beginning to get hot here in Nashville, which is a delight that it has held off this long. I’m so excited that you have hopped over to my blog and are (mildly) interested to read my response to this hop’s theme question: “What can I teach the world?” I’d like to teach the world the benefits of tarot. 

The other day, an inquisitive person asked me, “How is a tarot reading useful?” I didn’t hesitate in my passionate answer, “The time of a tarot readings is a wonderful and needed opportunity to sit down, take a breathe, and think about your life. During this time you don’t have to do anything. You are taking stock of what happened in the past, what is currently happening in your life, and where it is all heading. You get a quiet period to contemplate your big picture and ask yourself, “Do I like how things are going? Do I want to alter my path? What choices can I make to create the life I desire?” This time spent consulting with your intuition can set you up to make big moves in a conscious direction.”

We all need that time to pause, even if we are cruising at full speed towards amazing results. The society I find myself a part of is all go, go, go! Even yoga has become a workout and time in the car is for massively consuming podcasts at 1.5x speed (I can’t handle either of those things, but I know that they are popular!) The time of a tarot reading opens up a space to slow down. All electronic devices can be shut off and put away. The analog, physical, and beautiful nature of the cards brings a sensual pleasure to a tarot reading. You can pick of the cards, you can look into your tarot readers eyes, you can take the opportunity to have a real, meaningful conversation. 

Lately, I’ve become really interested in honest and open conversations about real life. Usually, I find myself having social interactions that are pretty superficial, discussing the weather, or TV shows, or what my dog is up to these days. There is a need within me, and one I see reflected in other people I meet under the right circumstances, to have deeper conversations. I want to talk about creativity, love, the meaning of life, and the mystery of the Universe. I want to talk about the emotional and mental patterns that have gotten us where we am now and the changes we would like to make to grow. I want to talk about the risks we are all taking to get out of our comfort zones, and what is guiding us through that risk taking process.

A tarot reading is a great time to have a conversation about what scary risks are being avoided or resisted. I enjoy reading so much, because it gives me an “excuse” to have a meaningful conversation with another human being, the type of conversation I always want to be having. The tarot cards gives us both something to focus on during that conversation to ease into what can be an awkward or scary opening up of the soul’s desires. Of course, the other magical part of the reading is the 2 cents that the Universe adds to a tarot reading. So often, the cards we draw reveal or uncover what part Fate is playing in life. The experience and reaction to that awareness of Fate can be life altering. It gives a chance to work with Fate, to make choices with the Universe in mind, to shape your own Destiny.

I hope you continue along the tarot blog hop to encounter the next wonderful teaching…

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