Justice Soul Meditation
The meditation I did with the Justice card in Soul Meditations went places I wasn't expecting. I entered the meditation by walking up to the wooden gates which looked like saloon doors to me. I pushed throw them to find myself in a landscape like that of the western USA. I was in a field or pasture of horses, surrounded by mountains, and dressed up in a cowboy outfit. The closest thing to reach out and touch was a large brown horse, so I ran my hands over it's silky coat. In front of me, Lady Justice sat on her throne just as in the tarot card, her throne atop a grey stone outcropping. I climbed up the stone steps to her and took her hands. She gazed at me intently and spoke one word, "Truth", when I asked her what I was here to learn. As I held her hands I felt myself growing weary and wanting to sit down. I felt myself sink slowly, exhausted, into the body of Lady Justice upon the throne. My weariness stemmed from the weight of constant thinking and decision-making. I lifted the heavy sword of Justice in my right hand, and my ability to lift it at all immediately lifted by spirits. Perhaps I could keep sifting through all lie's challenges, cut to the pertinent information, and use it to choose wisely. In my left hand, the scales of Justice were fragile and light as a feather. The softest wind could cause them to sway and crash into each other. When the scales were evenly balanced and made contact with each other, the sweetest chime of bells was heard. The constant balancing act of weighing out options and possibilities could produce fine results, but it was a fragile and delicate balance. This endless process tires me.
I concentrated on the feel of the lifted sword in my right hand and the balanced scales in my left hand. Feeling the combined energy of the sword and scales gave me even more heart. Decision-making is an important and valued aspect of me and I should take pride in that. I try to be fair, objective, have perspective, and take other's needs to heart when I make choices. This is my truth. Sometimes I want to just fuck it all and let someone else figure things out for a while, but that isn't how my life works. I choose to be accountable for my actions, even the ones that I let other people decide for me. I rose and looked behind the red velvet curtain that hung behind the throne. On the other side was the stage in the Greek amphitheater that I saw during The Magician meditation. The theater was empty and I knew it was a sign that I need to stand before the public and make my truth known. When I left the body of Lady Justice, she gave me a present from her robes. She pulled out a light, transparent, small box. The clear box carried the same message as the amphitheater: I need to be willing and able to speak openly, use fairness, see many perspectives and make choices in order to move forward with my work as a tarot reader. The box could also represent the constraints we let society put upon us. Am I trapped in a narrow form of my own making even though I'm trying to break out of some box society wants to put me in? How can I tell?
When I gazed upon Justice before leaving the card, she had my face. She told me to persevere. I may be weary of constantly weighing out options and priorities and seeing both sides, but I have to keep going, therefore I might as well try and accept and enjoy it. I can shine out my truth for all to see, and not hide or be defeated. I have Mars in Libra in my birth chart, which can indicate that my power in this life is wrapped up in the Justice qualities of fairness and balance. This is not a powerful placement, so I'm prone to losing steam, but I must remember that truth will carry me forward. I need to embody the morals, ethics, and stature of Lady Justice when I feel fatigued. Of course, sometimes we do need to rest and recover, but in general, I need to find my inner strength and glow like this image of the IX of Wands.
I didn't realize until I did this Soul Meditation just how tiring decision-making is for me. It can be a real burden and drain on my energy since I am able to see so many sides of a situation and want to keep everything balanced. I must decide deliberately what to cut and what to keep. An awareness of the challenges that the Justice archetype bring to my life is an important lesson I learned in this Soul Meditation.