Loving Yourself When You’re Not Perfect

Happy Scorpio Season! 

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You may (or maybe not!) have noticed that Scorpio Season started a week ago and the newsletter is late! Have you been wondering where your Willow Path Tarot newsletter is? If so, I’m sorry for the delay- here it is!

So, I tried not to stress about the newsletter being late, but of course, I did a little bit. It matters to me to be consistent and to show up. Yet, I remind myself (and you if you need a gentle reminder) it’s okay for me to not be perfectly on time or perfect in general. I’m doing my best and that’s what I have to offer the world.
 
There is always that nagging feeling that I could do better than my best, though. I have been raised with the often overt and sometimes subliminal message that I am not living up to my potential. I could do more, and do it better, if I just applied myself! Do you relate?
 
This belief about my ability to live up to my potential is an aspect of my shadow that I’m working on during this Scorpio season. This time is famous (or infamous?) for bringing our dark sides to the surface. This is a thought pattern that I would like to release and let go, because it does not serve me to constantly be doubting my efforts, abilities, and outputs.
 
The idea that we are not good enough, or just plain not enough in general, is a toxic message that we all need to let go. If I succumb to the idea that I’m never doing my best and nothing is enough, I can never rest, relax, or be content.  I’m setting myself up for misery and failure. Who wants that?!
 
Well, the capitalist machine wants that, of course. It needs us to always be working hard and producing more and never happy with the status quo. Constant growth is the objective so success is always about more: more production and more buying of things. It’s not serving any of us (expect the power hungry rulers on top) to continue these beliefs and it’s past time more people wake up to the delusion and evolve to the next iteration of humankind.
 
This newsletter is getting a bit worked up! There is deep truth here, though and if I need to work myself up in order to be honest about what I’m doing and why, that’s just my way of growing and evolving in this world. Maybe it is yours too?
 
If you have a sinking feeling that you’re somehow not living up to your potential, you can join my recovery club. I practice meditation, loving affirmation, and sometimes a rage against the machine session in order to bring myself back to a place of self love and self acceptance.
 
I am enough. I am doing a good job. I deserve to be happy and healthy just the way I am.
 
So anyway, back to my life update- I set aside time to do the newsletter last weekend, but then a migraine descended and I just wasn’t going to push myself to write when I thought my head might explode. I could have done it, but it would have been super painful and the only reason to do it would have been to “live up to my potential.” So no, I put it off until I could type without the key clicks each being a tiny little torture. And it’s okay for me to show up authentically late. Because is it ever too late to reconnect with your peeps?

I say no. Now is a great time!
 
Scorpio Season is an excellent time to let things go and to get into the shadow reasons of why you think and act the way that you do, especially when it feels like subconscious patterns are leading you down unhealthy paths. It’s time to let old patterns rot and decay. It’s time to make things right with your past, let skeletons out of the closet, and put old demons to bed. It’s time to peer through the veil at future possibilities of new growth and evolution. It’s time to plant bulbs of beauty deep in your soil that will blossom into new life forms in the springs.
 
This past month has not gone as planned. I mentioned last newsletter that I was taking the month off from Instagram in order to focus on a tarot writing project, and while I did succeed in subverting the draw to post on Instagram, I only opened up time for writing on one week of the month. It was glorious, but it was less than I had hoped. The reason for that is that I got a short-term but time intensive job for three weeks in order to earn money for a fun trip I’m taking in November.
 
I’ll be going to Ecuador with my travel club friends for the last two weeks of November and I am beyond excited. I live to travel so this intense time of work was a no brainer for me. I work hard now so I can take time off and enjoy a stress-free trip money-wise. And, of course, I’ll bring my cards along to Ecuador and hopefully share some of the trip experience with you.
 
I’ve just started posting on Instagram again today! You can once again find my daily readings there. I am happy to find that I do deeply enjoy the daily time I spend on Instagram sharing tarot with you. It isn’t about marketing for me, it’s about having fun with the tarot and with you.
 
And as I’ll be out of the country for half of November, the tarot reading shop will be closed for a while. If you would like to get a reading before my trip, get in touch! I still have slots available for the next week or so, for email and online in-person readings. Then I will be on vacation from November 12th through December 3rd. I’m planning on offering a great end of 2023/beginning of 2024 reading option during December and January so look forward to that!
 
I hope you enjoy the rest of your Scorpio season: digging deep, examining your shadows, and releasing and letting go of outdated thought forms. I’m already looking forward to reconnecting with you next month.